Sunday, September 28, 2008
A new bliss. Seriously.
Yiruma- River Flows in You. MY lullaby for now :D
Good things come eventually.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Well!!
Here I am, still alive. For the most part :)
I change emotions so often it's scary. Teehee. You'll get used to it if you aren't already.
Anyway, it must be so trifling reading about the life of an average teen. Millions blog about their lives too. Nothing out of the ordinary. Too bad I am an exeption eh? :D
But heck, I don't discuss really important issues here anyway and if you still visit here, you've probably noticed by now. For heart-to-heart conversations, call me out and we'll talk. I don't bear my whole soul here for a one sided reflection. Not my style. I can get deep when the occasion calls for it. Only when it does. And only people I am confortable with of course.
So for the most part, small rantings, okay, sometimes longer rantings occupy this place. And of course the small joys in life that come by every now and then. Those that can be mentioned in passing. The big ones really can't be put into words. They could, but it would take you ages to read it anyway. And the human mind is so fickle. Too many words and they drift off. Am I right? :D Besides, I DO have many big joys in life.
Anyway, as usual, I forgot the reason for this post. I guess I am just feeling better than usual. I love this feeling. Assignments done and all. Well, I do have one more but I'm pausing for a moment to take a breather. Oh and not to mention the vast amount of reading I have neglected for God knows how many weeks. It's a wonder I still am able to retain a fraction of what is mentioned in lectures considering my current state.
Anyway, as I said, a breather and a respite from the workload. Tralalalalalala....
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I've succumbed to the dark side. I thought I was strong enough to resist it but....I failed. I'm such a sucker for a good book :( It's so bad it might be a flaw.
I'm reading Twilight now. Don't roll your eyes okay. True, I haven't read books like these in a long time. I do admit they can be a little cliched. I mean, compared to books like The Kite Runner, Angela's Ashes, Gone With The Wind, Pride and Prejudice and Atonement to name a few, Twilight can seem really shallow. Not much depth. Surely you get it. Its very easy reading.
But I've not outgrown my girlish fantasies. Not totally anyway. So it's always nice to indulge in a book like Twilight every now and then. Hehe.
I didn't think it was such a hit in Malaysia but then suddenly everyone was talking about it. I think the movie, due in December or November created the hype.
Short gist la. I am so very lazy to give the details here. Vampire love story. Hot male vampire falls for human girl which apparently isn't as hot. So the story goes... Cliched right? Smirk all you want, I really don't care. Besides, I'll always prefer those novels to series like Twilight.
I think it's a huge hit with the tweens since I did find it in the teenage section of MPH. I heard of this book a long time ago but I didn't think it was a big thing in Malaysia and then the next thing I knew, its displayed everywhere.
So... heh. I'm weak for many things okay. Don't judge. I love clothes and books equally as much :P
Anyway, I was quite reluctant to buy it since the printed words were quite big and well, I'm so used to small words in bestselling novels. I even thought of borrowing the series. Yeah, its a series. But I COULDN'T help myself. I read the 1st book in a day. Heh. BIG WORDS, LARGE SPACINGS. Okay la the point is, I bought the whole set :D :D
New books make me happy la. Anything new makes me happy. So I'm gonna indulge for a while. I know its not a good thing. BUT. We shall leave it at that. And I haven't read a good book in weeks :(
Dad spoils me in more ways than one. But I shall be eternally grateful :)
The first book in the series. The next books are New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. *skips off happily to read the remaining books*
I hate this feeling.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
When you want it to lie, it never does. The facts are so hard to manipulate unless you are really good at it. Or make up some excuse for all the shortcomings and faults.
I hate this feeling. PMS makes it worse.
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I need something. I'll admit it. Too bad it's way out of my reach. God, be kind to me please. I've got enough on my mind. My brain is mush now. A big puddle of mush.
I hate this feeling.
You know its bad when shopping doesn't cheer you up.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
I like country music and fairytales. And classics. Bite me.
Hot guy. And I love Taylor. The dress, so pretty. And the setting. Enough said. So yeah, I'm gonna go dream now, picturing myself in her shoes :D
Quickie... 2/3/4.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
I forgot the number of times I used quickie as a title.
Cheeps has 404 posts. I have half that number. And I believe I started blogging 1st.
Oh well,I wasted a day not doing my assignments and CASUALLY doing some procrastinated homework. I am so unproductive its scary. I had the whole day free. Was supposed to finish up part of one assignment and do research for another one. I did none. I love my plans :( They seemed feasible at the time.
Uhhuh. Here I go again.
Finals are soooon. Its already week 9 in Monash time. Why is time in SUCH a hurry? My knowledge for this sem, although has been increasing very little by little, seems stagnant and numb now. It feels like week 3 to me. I'm counting down the time by the weeks now and mourn when a day passes.
And I promised a friend we will do well together this sem after consoling him. What a hypocrite I turned out to be.
Anyway, I'm gonna go salvage whatever time I have left now before I go out.
p.s: Owh. Friends are leaving for UK soon. WHYYYYY is everyone leaving? Its depressing. But all the best and please bring back the things I requested :D They scoff at what I asked them to buy. Wahahah. Such cute people.
Cookie cookie cookie
Monday, September 01, 2008
Aaaahhhh.....
My place smells like Famous Amos.
Teehee.
On rainy days, bake cookies.
And don't ask me if anyone died. I ate a whole lot and I'm here okay? :D
Toodles. Gotta get back to assignments :(
Yet another one.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
I just read something. I hope it wasn't aimed at me or anything.
I do try. But life isn't always free and easy like it used to be, you know? Where all you did was go to school, came home, sleep, yack on the phone with not a care in the world etc. Life has changed abit since then. Retaining childhood innocence is hard in the world. Too much bad things. But kudos to you people who can see the simpler side of things in bad situation. I do at times :) Life has not turned me bitter.
I digress easily. Teehee. Sorry. Where was I? Oh right. But sometimes, you have to be in the other's shoes to understand. You can't please the world. You just can't. You'd die trying to anyway. Cause you'll be living a life to please others and not yourself when really, don't you deserve better than living for others? It's not like they were living for you anyway.
Too bad if they don't understand. It's not your fault really.
If this is a hurdle to make you understand, bring it on. But don't ever say I didn't try.
To quote Randy Pausch, "We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just the way we play the hand"
I pray
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Mandarin test this Friday. She just might fail this one. :(
2 mid terms next week.
2 heavy assignments due the following week. One of which she has barely started. Not that the other is way ahead.
Add in the fact she has been snacking non stop. Stress. Don't ask. Snacking = gaining weight non stop.
The online website is rejecting her attempts to log in to try the MCQ questions. *ajfkfbiwbwibwicb##djfb*
Oh Lord.If even there was a time to answer her prayers, let it be now.
She is going to weep now.
Bless you!
p.s.: She is soooo happy her friends are doing well and are happy. They deserve it. Muax muax!
Ugh.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
University applications make me all sad inside.
Siggh. I'm so weird.
Anyway, short update. Not happy news.
Had a bad day yesterday.
You wanna slap me?
Even after I don't talk during your lectures and sit in front so I won't fall asleep and only talk during break time? Just because I talked a bit loudly during break? FYI, I wasn't the only person talking. I'm also NEVER late to lectures unlike you. A person has to let out SOME noise during your insanely boring talk. So I did it during break. Fine then. When I get that HD for your unit, I'll slap you with it.
So pissed.
:D
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
I just finished reading The Kite Runner.
OMG. Please people. Buy it. Steal it. Just get your hands on it!
I haven't watched the movie but I will soon. However, I think it will be a let down compared to the book.
Now I shall not pick up another book before I finish my assignments. Sigggh.
Oh the pain...
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
My thighs are blardy aching :(
After 2 months a few months of not going to the gym, I've become soooo flabby and lazy. My stamina, I think, has dropped to -1.
Yesterday, because I was to lazy to study, I decided to head to the gym in my condo. The workout actually felt good and it somehow give me the urge to start exercising again. This morning, my legs were aching already. And I STILL pushed myself to workout. Now I'm paying the price.
Its sooo painful I just want to lie in bed all day and read a good book.
But I haven't done my homework and assignments. Plus I have 3 lectures tomorrow to read up on.
I want to go OUT!
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I want to see my babes :( I miss them already. And 2 of them have left for Australia. 4 months before they come back. Can't wait.... :( :(
Something to look forward to this Friday at least:D Adeline Heng, I'm comingggggg :)
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Something has come over me. I suddenly have the urge to try out Latin dancing. Classes are offered at Monash this sem :) But I still don't want to be the only nutcase there stepping on everyone's feet.
Losing Pendrive Syndrome. And Tagged.
Friday, July 25, 2008
1st of all, I declare that I want pendrives for my birthday. I MEAN it. With my luck and stupidity, I just might lose them again. God grant me memory power because I am so sick of my stupidity and carelessness. Thank you.
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Tagged by Baybeh :D
This is going to be interesting.
The Music Shuffle Meme
1. Put your iTunes/ music player/ phone on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must put down the song name no matter what.
After you’ve answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and then let them know they’ve been tagged to the meme themselves.
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1.What would best describe your personality?
Forever- Chris Brown. (Forever what?)
2.What do you like in a guy/girl?
The Time Of my Life- David Cook ( Yup yup, I want to feel like that forever :D)
3.How do you feel today?
This Is Me- Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas ( Yup, this is me. The forgetful dumbo)
4.What is your life's purpose?
Cinderella- Steven Curtis Chapman (Awwwh. I'm Cinderella. Means I'm gonna meet my prince!)
5.What is your motto?
Teardrops On My Guitar- Taylor Swift (Sigh. This is such a depressing motto.)
6.What do your friends think of you?
Until The Time Is Through-5ive (I'll be there for you :D)
7.What do you think of your parents?
All These Lives- Daughtry (Erm. Life they gave me? But they didn't kidnap me :D)
8.What do you think about very often?
It's Only Life- Kate Voegele ( Yup. Oh soooo true)
9.What do you think of your best friend?
Our Song- Taylor Swift ( Hmmmm. We do sing a lot :D)
10.What do you think of your crush?
What About Now- Daughtry ( Hmm. No comment.)
11.What is your life story?
Homecoming- Kanye West ( I haven't really been anywhere.)
12.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Finally- Fergie (Finally, now my life doesn't seem so bad. I'll say these words when I make it big :D)
13.What do you think when you see your crush?
Warwick Avenue- Duffy ( So depressing one!)
14.What do your parents think of you?
What You Got- Akon ft. Colby O'Donis (I've got many things :D)
15.What do strangers think of you?
A.RA.SHI- Arashi (Errrr. No comment.)
16.What will they play at your funeral?
Sakura Sake- Arashi (Eh.)
17.What will you dance to at your wedding?
So Small- Carrie Underwood (Oh well. I hope I won't be this insecure by then.)
18.What is your hobby/interest?
So Close- Jon Mclaughlin ( I'm close to my books :D)
19.What do you think of your friends?
I'm Already There- Lonestar (Yes, I'm there for you guys)
20.What song do you listen to when you are sad?
Smoky Mountain Memories- David Archuleta (Well, it is a sad song :( )
21.What song do you air guitar to?
Always Be My Baby- David Cook (???)
22.What should be your signature karaoke song?
You'll Be In My Heart- Phil Collins ( Not too bad :P)
23.What is your greatest desire?
If I Never Knew You- Pocahontas OST (Hmmm.)
24.What does next year have in store for you?
I Could Not Ask For More- Edwin McCain (Wow. If it comes true, I really could not ask for more :D :D )
25.What's your outlook on life?
Hollywood's Not America- Ferras (Hmmm. Very true actually.)
26.How will you die?
Moon River- Henry Mancini (Two drifters off to see the world...)
27.Do people secretly lust after you?
Istimewa- Indigo ( Hahahha. Is that a yes? I am special after all :P)
28.The best advice you will ever get
It's Not Over- Secondhand Serenade (Not bad at all.)
29.What will I be doing for the next 3 months?
Carry You Home- James Blunt (Does this mean I'll be staying at home?Siiiiggggh :( )
30.What do you think of the person who tagged you?
I'm Yours- Jason Mraz ( Hahaha. Yea, I belong to her :D)
31.What will your future mother-in-law be like?
Only Fooling Myself- Kate Voegele ( Doesn't sound good.Haha.)
32.What is the favourite song of the doctor who will help deliver your baby?
Love So Sweet- Arashi (I hope he won't be singing it.)
33.If you wrote a book, what would it be about?
Bye Bye- Mariah Carey (Sounds like a will la.)
34.What sort of world ruler would you be?
Pocket Full Of Sunshine- Natasha Bedingfield (Yea, I'm going to shower the world with sun and laughter!)
35.Will you ever get a dog or cat?
Who Will You Think Of First- Nicholas Teo (Errr.)
36.What would you say at your Oscar/Nobel prize acceptance speech?
One Love- Arashi (Yea, I'll be thanking all my loved ones)
37.What is your superpower?
At The Beginning- Richard Marx & Donna Lewis ( Makes no sense)
38.Why are you attracted to enigmatic brooders?
I'll Never Get Over You Getting Over Me- Selena (Realllly?)
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This is one funny Tag I tell you!
Now, I tag
1. Jie Juan
2. Adelina
So...
Thursday, July 24, 2008
So...
So...
Nothing much to update these days. If I gave you my daily routine, you'd be asleep in the next 10 seconds of reading.
I didn't get to play paintball during my hols. Sad. Oh well. Another time then.
Friends are leaving for Aussie soon :( Didn't have enough time to spend with them la..
My YSD scholarship interview was okay. It was only the 1st stage. Praying for the best and leaving it to Him. Its best not to expect anything and you just might get it ;) Makes it feel sweeter. Met some really nice people there and even some old friends! Small world we live in.
Sometimes when we least expect it, small things happen to brighten our day :D
That last sentence was just for me to understand :)
I have a presentation in a few hours so going to practice more now. Will update later if I feel like it and lately, there hasn't been much motivation to blog about much. I think I'm beginning to see how dull my life is at the moment.
Till then, have a great week people ;D
Friday, July 18, 2008
Oh God. Please don't punish me for enjoying my holidays too much. :(
I never knew I would feel stressed on my first week of sem.
I'm gonna go cry now.
Update. Not like you care.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
4 different subjects this semester.
I have no background in any of them. Oh well, I do have abit. But my Add Maths is sooooo rusty okay?
And I think I have a substantial amount of reading to do for some subjects. Gah.
Oh pray for me people. I think I didn't really appreciate my holidays. Mid hols and I was wishing for uni again.
Oh heck. I need to go study now.
Listening: Warwick Avenue- Duffy, Love So Sweet- Arashi
Happy.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
I'm happy :D
Yeah, hope this feeling lasts a looooong time :D
I'm feeling so blessed.
I did quite well for my first sem. Guess the last minute reality check paid off. But I REALLY don't want to go through that period again. Means I must buck up this sem. Darn it, I haven't even cleaned out my drawers..
Now where are those textbooks... *poke poke, push, shove, brush off the dust, pull... ahha!* found them :P
Will be selling them off second hand if anyone is interested.
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Since this blog is so devoid of pictures, I will add a few ok? You know what, only one :) Keep you wanting more :D
This cutie here is my hairdresser's daughter. She has such pretty eyes la. BIG. And the longest eyelashes I tell you. And sooooooo adorable. Forgive my hair. Had it cut. Looks messy. I wanted a fringe. Didn't turn out :(
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Uni starting on Monday. Boohoo. :(
Tagged.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
1.What do you want the most now?
The most... Man, I need to get a list. Somewhere along the lines of getting good grades, reading my books, watching Grey's, meeting new people with the same interests,.. eating ice cream without putting on weight. Yup, somewhere along those things.
2.Who is the person you trust the most?
God and family.
3.Are you in love?
I doubt so.
4.If you have a dream come true..
People would be so much happier.
5.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yeah. Well, it is scientifically proven after all. But Malaysia has crappy rainbows. Probably due to all the pollution. Go to Mauritius for beautiful ones. Seriously.
6.What's your goal for this year?
Doing well for my first year. Neeeeeeed to buck up.
7.Do you believe in eternity?
Heaven is eternity right? So yeah :D
8.Have you ever broken a person's heart that he/she wanted to commit suicide?
Drama. Nope. Never broken anyone's heart.
9.What feeling do you love the most?
Happiness. Loved.
10.What are the requirements for your other half?
These kind of things are really for face-to-face conversations. So if you really are interested, let me know and I'll gladly tell you. But honestly, I don't have a long list of characteristics the other half MUST have. Honestly, as long as he treats me right, I'll be happy. That being said, I do have some PREFERRED characteristics. But those are for me to know, and well, you to ask.
11.What kind of feeling do you hate the most?
Regret.
12.Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
I try to. It's hard when the other person doesn't put in effort but yes, I do try :D I do hope I'm doing a good job ;)
13.What do you want to do in the future?
Again, there are just tooooo many things to list down. Off the top of my head: Travel the world, learn French, be involved in a charitable organisation, score good grades, write a book :D, find a job I am happy with, etc.
14.What is the most important thing in your life?
God, family, friends in that precise order.
15. How did you feel last night?
Tired but contented.
16.Who do you hope to be always there for you?
God and the people closest to me.
17.When do you think the world will end ?
I have no idea. Do you?
18.The world ends tomorrow. What will you do?
Hopefully, I would have accomplished most of the things I have wanted to do already. Because it would be hard to do all that in one day.
19.What do you think of the person that tagged you?
My baybeh. Extremely smart, sweet, friendly has a contagious laugh and a great friend :)
20.What do you want to know right now?
I want to finish reading Persuasion by Jane Austen.
Then add 4 people in your list and list them out at the end of the post.
Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged!
1. Adelina
2. Chee Ping
3. Yi Qing
4. Adeline
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Since I have been so bored at home, I did a manicure.
I know it doesn't look as good as those professionals outside can make them look but I think they look pretty good for an amateur. Besides, I wouldn't part with my money to get my nails done. I never really cared much for my nails.
Being at home with abundant free time, I decided to do something with them lor. I've always loved the French manicure. What d'ya think?
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Hols are ending soon. Back to reality. See you guys back in coll.
Fly away weight.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
I've gained weight laaaa.
Stupid chocs.
Even mum says so. Grrrr.
Diet time. Actually, since I stopped going to the gym more than a month ago, I realised it makes a huge difference to me.
I want high metabolism toooooo.
Sigggh.
Oooh. I got something today :D Ask me and I will tell you :D :D
Yup.Oh so screwed.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Oh here she is.
The test is oh, 8 hours away and instead of cramming like she should, she's busy blogging, blog hopping, facebooking, waching Ever After AGAIN, and God knows what else.
Screwed is what she is.
Then again, she never was one to function without pressure.
Sigh. The holidays have left her feeling like the world is all fun and games. And when she heads back for semester 2, she would probably be feeling as if she were floating on clouds again.
Oh the irony. Wait till she screws up something big time and then she starts to get her ass back on track. Why does she do it? Oh cause maybe she still hasn't learned her lesson.
And she always says she does.
Typing this makes her wonder why she even bothers to stress later and regret her wise decisions.
Okay okay. Now she feels a little guilty and will start cramming now. She does have SOME conscience of right or wrong.
Screwed is what she is.
She wants to go out :D
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
It's a nice feeling. To be remembered.
To see someone's face light up with genuine happiness when they see you. Tells you a lot. I like to think that I've made a difference in one way or another in your life as you have in mine.
It's a nice feeling.
And to my honey in UWE, PLEASE don't feel so stressed okay? You can do it.
