Feeling Blessed

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Christmas. I always loved that word. I guess it bings with it lots of love, joy, happiness, presents, delicious food, sales!and fun.

Looking back now ( Yeah , NOW I look back), I see that I really have taken for granted lots of things.Every year we'll have a wonderful Christmas dinner in my aunt's house...Seriously, its gooodddd..Lots of meaty stuff especially.We're talking about 2 types of ham, lamb, 3 types of sausages, 2 turkeys / goose, the oh-so- healthy salad with plenty of dressing, wine ( Not like I drink)..More than enough for the whole family to stomach I guess. Save some for Boxing Day :).

After dinner will be presents time and catching up on all sorts of news about each others lives.And do I stop and think about how good I have it?No.

So I REALLY have nothing to complain about. So what if I didn't receive a present that I like?It's the thought that counts right?Not to mention the fact that I actually GOT something.

When I read the newspaper like a day or two before Christmas, it makes me really sad that some people don't even have enough food to enjoy Christmas properly.Don't even talk about presents la.I was reading this article the other day in The Malay Mail about this lady who only longs for people to donate school clothes for her two primary school going children as she can't aford it.It's sad really.

So yes, I'm feeling oh-so-blessed at the moment.
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Went to Mid Valley yesterday with a friend.Feet were aching by the end of the day.But it was worth it. The decor there was simply to die for.(I actually wanted to write this post yesterday.BUT. My picture uploading thing wasn't working.Hence the thing of writing it today) ;)


I really love the white christmas-y look in Mid Valley.

Handbags Galore..

I'm in a handbaggy mood.I don't know why.Been constantly looking for handbags lately.Hehe.Just looking la.It's not like I actually have the 'ka-ching' to go shopping anyway.*Sigh*.. Oh well.Munchies and TV never fails to dampen my mood, unless I'm in a seriously depressed mood which I'm not feeling at the moment.

Anyway I've been looking and I found some just too adorable to pass up on.My favs...












The Guess Nile Top Zip Handbag













The Guess Velvet Rose Banana Handbag. Colour: Rose. Click here to view the other colours.















Monica Faux Fur Guess Shoulder Handbag. Colour: Black.



















Roxy Handbag.Colour :Rouge.
















Roxy Fab Black. Click here to view the one in pink.
















Roxy Mine Handbag in Dune.Go here to see the one in Coffee.















I loveee this Roxy Ya'll design in Spruce Green.To view the other colours, go here.

So there.My own little yacking on handbags that I want. Anyone with spare cash?

P.S. = It's still Christmas....TWELVE days of christmas...Lovely ;)

When I Get Bored...

Thursday, December 22, 2005

I went for my Undang exam today with Audrey and Adeline.You should have seen us before the test.Just a bundle of nerves.Well, me actually la.The other two were kinda cool.Oh well.By the way, we passed!!Woohooo!! :)

I've been doing some thinking recently.Just to avoid doing more studying, I'll pretend to read while thinking about things that have been happening in my form 4 year.Hehe.It's actually quite easy when the book you are reading is immensely boring, try the Undang question book, and your mind just can't help but wander to another place.It works for me ;)

I was thinking to a time when I actually thought exams were fun.Seriously. I guess back then it was easy-peasy lo.NOW it's a whole different story.I guess it comes with the whole concept of growing up.Sad sad sad.
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Just a few things I would hear regularly from my friends during exam season :

"Sara, chill!"

"Relax la Sara!"

"Sara, stop studying!"

"Ugh! Stop studying already!"

"Don't so tense!"

And...the most recent one...

"You crazy ah?!?"

Hmmmm........So I admit I do get tense over the most trivial of things.I guess its just in my nature.=D
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Oh and before I forget...

Have A Blessed Christmas Everyone!!

'Tis The Season To Be Caroling

Monday, December 19, 2005

Today was the last day of our 3 day annual christmas caroling.I am so gonna miss it.Another year to wait for the next caroling.I'll be patient.Hehe.

We went to a nursing home today for our last caroling.It was called Phyllis Nursing Home.The people there were all so friendly and nice to us.The first two days of caroling saw us going from one house to the other, singing carols and stuffing our mouth with all sorts of food, tidbits, cordial, junk, getting presents, money and soooo much more.Yup gaining weight again.So much for losing it.*sigh*....But for all my complains, I really did enjoy our caroling this year although it did seem a little dreary at the beginning when the turn out was so little.Hehe.We came, we sang, we conquered, we ate and we loved every minute of it!!


Me and Ann.Miss you so much girl.

My darlings.Uh, the girls only.Hehe.Thats Evan with "santa".

Somehow I really like this decor thing.Took this picture from one of the houses I was caroling in.It has this really cool fiber optic effect.I loveeeee it.


My fellow carollers.Muaxx~

From left: Shaun, Evan, Adeline and Nat.

Don't we look simply angelic?

Celebrated a birthday or two.Happy 21st Shalom!

Our ever hardworking guitarist.


Santa's lovely santarinas.

Mae and me.

Amanda and me.Tom Felton fans forever!*winks*

Me and Addie.Love ya!

Me and Mae.Yet again.

Group pic.Lalalalala lalalala~

Winner of the angelic picture award.*coughs*...prassan.Hehe.Joking.Hey, the light behind does give some effect.

There She Goes Again.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Woke up rather early this morning. Not intentionally if you must know but because I had too for my tennis lesson which just had to be at 8 a.m. every Wednesday and Friday. You would think some people would love to sleep in on holidays, no?..Not my coach apparently. I can't wait till the tennis courts in my normal club gets done so that I can go back to going for tennis lessons on Sunday evenings.At least then I wouldn't be half asleep although I also usually have to drag my feet to the courts on Sundays as well.Hehe.Thats me.Being a total pig.*oink oink*

Well tennis lasted only an hour today, normally it would last for two long, long, longggg hours.That was because no one else showed up except for me and my cousin today.Yeah,they were smart.Not like us.Aih they sacrifices I make.

I slept more than usual today.Not exactly proud of it but if you gotta sleep you gotta sleep right?Oh well.I love sleeping.Sue me if you will...Came back from tennis,took an extremely satisfying bath and had a short nap.For half an hour only la...Then I had lunch, watched some TV, read a bit and proceeded to my soft bed again.Mind you, this would not have happened if I had gotten enough sleep the night before but alas, tennis was calling me. Grudgingly, I woke up at 2.30 to get ready to go for my caroling practice.Not like I didn't wanna go, hey it was a chance to mingle with my friends, but because I just felt so sleepy I just didn't wanna get out of my nice, soft bed.

Caroling.A word I was looking forward to all year.Sadly, the turn out this year was pretty disappointing.Where's the christmas spirit guys?...Not there I suppose.At least there were some new people this year if not few.Oh well, we'll do our best this year eventhough we have so little people and our singing isn't exactly up to par.We'll be impeccably dressed however, I hope, so don't you snigger at our singing when we come to your houses!To the carolers : United we stand, devided we fall. Corny, I know but hey, it suits us.Heheh.

Came back form caroling practice approximately 2 gours later and went online to check some stuff.Then it was time for....dinner!Food here I come!=D

I planned to continue my studying for my Undang exam after dinner but somehow, being the procrastinator that I am, I started watching TV with my bro and sis.I kept saying to myself, "9 o'clock please go and study".had my mind set on it.Then......my dad came home and bought some new DVD's lo.Haih.I just couldn't help but watch them even though I had already watched them before.Hence, I didn't study.At all.There goes another worthless planning that I should not have bothered to set at all, knowing myself.I'll regret this one day.Sheesh.After two and half hours later of watching Harry Potter again, here I am writing this. I thank you for your time in reading this even though you could have done much more interesting things then listen to me ramble on about my boring life. =P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!

Sunday, December 11, 2005

It's my brother's birthday today so my family and relatives had a little party for him last night.Just a few pictures I managed to snap and actually had the mood to post. : D
My bro and cousins.Yeah, I can't believe I'm actually related to them.Hehe.Love you guys loads though =)
Life lessons.From my cousin's point of view.

Happy Birthday bro!! You're a year older!!

p.s =I'm STILL older than you.Hehhehehe...

Another Step Closer...

Yessss!! I'm another step closer to actually getting my 'P' license!Weeeee...

Went for the Undang lecture today with Drey and Adeline.I was surprised actually by how full the class was.It was so full that we didn't even get to sit next to each other but luckily they split up the group and therefore I got to sit closer to my friends la.Haih.......

The lecture was not bad actually.I thought it would be very boring and that I would fall asleep the second I got the chance though.Guess that didn't happen.The lecturer was quite entertaining if not loud la.Yeah,he was extremely loud, shouting like half the time, in a good way though.I was actually thankful that we didn't get those lackadaisical teachers.Now THAT would have been a bore.*ZzzZzzzZz* Hehe. The worst part was when I got called up to do this "quarreling" scene with him.Man, was he intimidating. In my head I was like "Shit, shit , shit why did he have to call ME?!?"... Then when I was standing right in front of the whole class I was thinking "Don't get tongue tied, don't get tougue tied"...Just my luck I guess...AND thankfully I survived.No harm done.

The next step....Undang test!! Wish me luck!!

Memoirs Of A Geisha

Saturday, December 10, 2005

This is a good book.Seriously.I admit that I only started reading it when I heard the movie was coming out sometime in January.Seeing as the book was entertaining enough, I can't wasit to watch the movie.

The story is about a young girl named Chiyo who was born in a fishing village.It tells of her life as she grows up to be a famous geisha named Sayuri.The book really goes into detail on how she was sold into slavery in the 1930's , how she was tormented by the geisha Hatsumomu and how she with all the ordeals of becoming a geisha.Entertaining and a good read.

Of Weird Thinkings and Failed Resolutions

Sunday, December 04, 2005

OK.This little thought was scaring me.Seriously.

I was having lunch with my family just the other day when I looked over at my brother.He was drinking some drink,I forgot what, using a straw.Suddenly I started thinking that it wasn't because my brother was sucking the drink that was making it go up the straw, but because when he sucks the straw, its actually air that he is sucking.Therefore, the pressure in the straw is less than the atmospheric pressure because the amount of air is getting less and less. So, it was not the fact that my brother was sucking the drink that made it go up the straw.It was in fact the atmospheric pressure that was acting downwards on the surface of the drink that was making the drink go up the straw.It took me a second later to realise I was thiking about pressure.Oh gosh. When I was having lunch.Not to mention the fact that I haven't touched my Physics books in like ages.

By the way, since I am so lazy, as you already know, I don't think I'll continue posting those daily Purpose Driven Life qoutings.Yup, yet another failed resolution.This one didn't even last three days!!!....Someone save me..

p.s.=I hope I got the concept of that Physics thing right...=)

Wishful Thinking

Friday, December 02, 2005

Just a few things I was thinking about...

I wish I was not so lazy.
I wish I would not procrastinate.
I wish I were more photogenic.
I wish I was better at Biology.
I wish I was better at Chemistry.
I wish I was better at Physics.
I wish I was better at Add Maths.
I wish I can remember everything in my History book which will be virtually impossible.
I wish I had more self confidence.
I wish I wasn't so self-centered at times.
I wish I were more fit.
I wish I could sleep all day.
I wish I was not so indicisive.
I wish I was more sure of what I want to be in the future.
I wish I wasn't so self-critical.
I wish I had another hobby other than sleeping and reading.
I wish I was more computer literate.
I wish I can driveeee.
I wish I wasn't so absent-minded.
I wish I was more graceful.
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Day 2: You are not an accident.

God planned for us to be bron this way.He was the one who prescribed every single detail of your body.He was the one who chose your race, your parents and where you were born.So, it is not by accident that you were born this way.He planned it all for HIS puepose.

A meaningful poem by Russell Kelfer:

You are who you are for a reason.

You're part of an intricate plan.

You're a precious and unique design,

Called God's special woman or man.

You look likeyou look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you feel,

They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,

And they bear the Master's seal.

No,that trauma you faced was not easy.

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed ny the Master's rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

(from the book)
DAY TWO
THINKING ABOUT MY PURPOSE

Point to Ponder: I am not an accident.

Verse to remember: "I am your Creator.You were in my care even before you were born." Isiah 44:2

The Purpose Driven Life

What on earth am I here for?

Those were the words that really got my attention when I picked up The Purpose Driven Life...Yeah so even though I heard of the book way before I even laid eyes on it, it never really struck me as a book I would like to read.Oh how utterly wrong I was.My cousin loaned it to me a couple of months back and it was just sitting on my desk till I recently decided that it was time to go on my 40 day spiritual journey with the Lord. That and the fact that I was being lazy of course to read the book.Just hope my cousin doesn't kill me for taking it for so long!Love ya loads girl!

So anyway I started today and I suppose I would be making regular posts on what today's lesson is and so on for 40 days I guess...I won't go into too much detail in case you want to read the book in the future and therefore I would only be spoiling it for you..=D

Day 1: It All Starts With God

The purpose of our lives is not about ourselves.It is about God.We were born by his purpose and for his purpose.It does make sense after a while I guess.We didn't create ourselves so who are we to tell ourselves what to do?Our purpose in life should be about what GOD wants us to do.To discover our purpose in life, the easiest way is simply to ask GOD.God has not left us to wonder in the dark.He gave us the Bible and only through HIS WORD will you discover your purpose in life.

(From the book)
DAY ONE
THINKING ABOUT MY PURPOSE

Point to ponder: It's not about me.

Verse to Remember: "Everything got started in him ad finds it's purpose in him." Colossians 1:16b

Question to Ponder: In spite of all the advertising around me,how can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?

(Other quotes I found very meaningful...)

• Focusing on ourselves will never reveal our lives purpose.
• You were made by God and for God-and until you understand that, life will never make sense.
• "For everything, absolutely everything above and below, visible and invisible,....everything got started with him and finds it's purpose in him." Colossians 1:16

My Day To Batu Caves And The Zoo...

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Before you guys ask why I don't have any pictures in this post seeing that it would have been a great oppotuinity to snap pictures, let me juat say that yours truly forgot to bring the camera.Aihhh...I kept the camera the night before because my mother said the table was getting too 'messy'....So, being Miss Forgetful,I completely forgot about it the next day.*smacks head*

My dad actually took a day off from work just to bring us there as he claimed that the weekends were just too crowded.*shrugs*....Anyway,we left the house at around 8.45 a.m. and went to fetch my cousin.My parents lanned to have brakfast at this supposedly famous coffee shop that sells seafood mee.And let me tell you,that place is so not cheap man.One bowl of noodles,a small one mind you, costs 11 bucks!13 bucks for large...For noodles,I personally think thats a bit too much.Ok,more like extortion of some sort.So maybe they had like a lot of ingredients such as prawns and stuff but still.......oh well,I didn't pay for it.*laughs*

Moving on....we reached Batu Caves at around 10.15 a.m.Now,thinking that I have been going to the gym more often than not,I was feeling especially psyched to actually making it to the top this time.Yup,I have never made it to the top before la.Hey, the last time I came I was 5!Give me a break...Thinking that going to the gym helped boost my stamina,I was like,come on lets go already!After climbing the first oh lets say, 20 steps,I was feeling tired already!Aiyohhhh.....Oh well back to the gym I guess.It wasn't as easy as I thought it would be(yeah and to think I would not feel tired *rolls eyes*)..Anyway,I am so happy to say that I wasn't the only one feeling tired.There were tons of people going up the steps and they looked like they were having a much harder time than us...Heheh..Oh I saw tons of monkeys though..Not like they were cute (Yup,not a big animal person)or anything but the baby ones were oh so adorable!

Happy to say that I made it to the top though.We didn't stay very long at the top since there wasn't a camera so why waste time right?We just mingled for a while , admired the statues and off we go,down the steps once again.It was also starting to smell a little funky up there..*laughs*..Coming down was so much easier although the size of the steps made it a little harder as it was so small...Being acarophobic,I was not having a very good time coming down..It beats the Great Wall though.I was like holding on to the railings the whole time, praying I won't trip and just go flying down..*ouch*

When we finally reached the bottom,we rested for a while then headed off to the zoo.My dad always wanted to get us to go there for reasons unknown because I know HE doesn't really enjoy it...But I'm not complaining..It was a nice change rather than just sitting at home doing nothing.Anyway, went in and the first thing we did was get in line for those car-rides thingy.I'm not really what you call them la.Yup,thats us being lazy...That ride took about 10 minutes around the zoo....Heheh...BUT we did take a walk round the zoo la after the ride.Saw the giraffes, elephants,deers,hippos,white rhinoceros,which weren't really white to say the least of it,more like brown..Hehe..Nothing very interesting except for one little incident.....

Well, we were walking past the lions, and let me tell you,they sleep for about 90% of the day.Now thats my kind of animal..hehhe.As I was saying,I was walking past the lions, my mom,sis and dad were in front but my bro and cuz were behind me still admiring something la.Being half blind,i still refused to wear my specs and was squinting to get a look at the lions seeing as they were quite INSIDE...I thought that my eyes were deceiving me but I thought I saw the male and the female lion on the verge of doing,uh, 'it'.Hahah...Then suddenly my brother,who was behind me, looked past my shoulder and said in this really loud voice "Eeeww....What are they doing?!?"..Needless to say I burst out laughing and my brother and cousin started laughing as well!The noise attracted my parents and they came back to see what was so funny.My mom was like saying all this crappy stuff which got us laughing even harder...Now,THAT was fun.The people beside us were also giving knowing smiles to one another.*wink*...Guess we weren't the only ones...

We left shortly after that as we were dead tired.It was a fun day I must admit although it was something so simple as going to the zoo and Batu Caves...If it was any other day,I think I wouldn't have as much fun as I did today =D

And Yet Life Goes On.....

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Days have been pretty boring lately.Nothing to give it the extra kick it needs.I was just thinking to the time before holidays started and planning all these things to do such as to start studying,clean up my stuff which has been collecting loads of dust,actually do something useful and not waste time...And the list goes on and on.
Sadly,none of it has come close to be completed..I just feel so lazy everyday and am actually looking forward to going back to school.At least then I would have something to do then just laze around.Yup,I've sunk THAT low...
Oh,undoubtedly I have been doing more exercise than usual lately.Courtesy of my mum of course.Haih.I wanna do something funnnnnnn........I can't wait for the next outing for movies ;)

I Wonder....

Sunday, November 20, 2005

A few days ago,out of utter boredom,I picked up my sister's K-zone mag and flipped through it.You might be surprised,but there ARE some fun stuff to read about.Aih,I also picked up the mag because Harry Potter was on the cover la.I'm a sucker for these kind of things.Hahah.

As I was saying,they had this article full of crazy Guinness World Records stuff.Just a few things that I found quite amusing if not weird la.........

::The DB Double Truffle Burger at Bistro Moderne in NYC,USA will cost you RM 440!!....I wonder who in their right mind will wanna fish out RM 440 for a burger la.I can get a burger for RM 5 at McD's man!

::Walk into the Kai Mayfair restaurant in London,England and you'd better make sure you're cashed up.A bowl of soup will cost you RM 690!....I wonder what can possibly be in that soup..

::The ice cream sundae in the Serendipity 3 restaurant in NYC costs RM 3660!It's the world's most expensive sundae and is covered in edible gold leaf.Food with bling-bling on it!....I wonder if it is actually worth THAT much la.Man,I can feel the hole in my pocket just thinking about spending that much on ice cream....

::A simple omelette takes a couple of eggs, a splash of milk and maybe a little cheese and some chives.BUT the Zillion Dollar Lobster Frittata at Le Parker Meridien Hotel in NYC is a cool Rm 3660!!...I won der if it is worth spending that much money on EGGS la..Did they add a whole lobster or something into the omelette?..

::An Englishman named Anthony Baskeyfield paid RM 3790 for a single grape and earnt a Guinness World Record for the most expensive piece of fruit ever bought....Sounds to me like its the rip-off of the century..

::A fan of bugs wandered into a Japanese pet shop and paid a record RM 326,000 for a rare, Giant Stag beetle.At 8 cm long,that's over RM 47,000 per centimetre!!...I personally hate bug and to think that some guy would actually BUY a bug for that much....*shudderss*

::Fancy a game of Monopoly?An 18 carat gold set was made by jewellers in the USA has solid gold houses and hotels with rubbies and sapphires on the chimneys.Even the DICE has has diamonds for spots!The cost?..RM 7.3 million!....Now thats one expensive game to play..And why waste the diamonds on dice for crying out loud!

::A pair of original Gucci 'genious jeans' with fashion-rips in the legs, plus African beading and feathers will cost you RM 11,200!!...I guess looking hot doesn't come cheap..*sigh*

::Top of your day with the world's most expensive bathroom.Found at the back of a Hong Kong jewellery shop,it's got 24 carat gold toilet bowls,washbasins,toilet roll holders, walls and mirror frames,plus a ceiling embedded with precious stones!All for a blingin' RM 12.6 million....I wonder..If thats their TOILET...how much can the jewellery cost?

It is a wonder why some people will spend so much money on such unnecessary things,no?

Planet Shakers Concert!

Friday, November 11, 2005

Wow!What an amazing night I had last night.Me and my gurlies went for the Planet Shakers concert and it was a blast!We were jumping all night(I eventually grew too tired to keep up=P)...and it was just soooooo fun!I'm sooo in love with the keyboardist although I'm not too sure whats his name.Ahhhhhhhh..........The drummer ain't half bad too!Mike Webber you rock!God's amazing presence was there too and everyone was on fire.Burning hot!Sizzzlinggggg....*sizzzz*

I'm even thinking of going tonight even though it's gonna be so packed!Oh well,maybe just to get their autographs because apparently I was not allowed yesterday as I was too late....Awhhh..*sobs*

Hope you guys enjoyed the concert!take care and God blesssss!

Yeah I'm too lazy to write much now.Here are a few pics that Charlene managed to snap!Thanks Lene!
MIKE WEBBER AND THE KEYBOARDIST!

THE KEYBOARDIST!HE CAN SING!

My Possibly Last Trip To PD.*sigh*

Friday, November 04, 2005

Man this sucks.I got back from Port Dickson yesterday.PD for short.My whole family has always used that term so don't ask why.Anyway,I learnt that that trip to PD was possibly my last trip there.*sobs*.....Let me tell you why this is so depressing to me....

Ever since I can remember,my whole family and my closest relatives have been going to PD.When I mean always,I mean like every year.Without fail my dad will book our usual bungalow and we will just spend a few days lazing around on the beach and yack and yack till our mouths are dry.We go there at least two to three a year,although in recent years it has been less because of our busy schedules and stuff.

I've been going there yearly since I was,what,approximately 7 months old?....Yeah,yours truly was feeling bored once and flipped through the guestbook.I actually found the date as to when I first went there.Figures I was to young to remember it being only 7 months old.

Flipping through my photo album,I found pictures of when I was younger just fooling around with my cousins on the beach.And let me tell you we were so darn cute back then.Hahaha...Good times definately.

Recently,they refurnished the place and it looks so much better with new furnitures and all.AND they just put up a playground.Oh yeah,forgot to mention that there is this huge acre of land right in front of the bungalow.As I was saying,they just put up this playground RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE BUNGALOW and my cousins and I (a reminder that my cousins are older than me) could not be more delighted although our delight is only short lived.Who wouldn't?We need not have to walk more than five feet to the swings!We just spent lazy afternoons and mornings even,on the swings,reliving our childhood memories.Weeee~...Yeah yeah,I still LOVE the swings no matter what you may think.

I must say though that the sea water there is D-I-R-T-Y.I mean,have you ever seen brown water?Ugh.Oh well,more time on the swings and more time for talking!

I forgot to mention the oh so helpful caretaker as well!He's been working there for as long as I can remember and I am pretty sure he was working there even before I was born.He cooks our meals and caters to our every need.He practically saw me grow up I guess.I'll miss him too.He was always so nice to us and never failed to have a smile on his face.

I don't know why,but it was fun-ner on this last trip.Maybe because I haven't gone in a while.Yeah my family went there once or twice without me.Hahaha..but I chose not to go for valid reasons of course.Or maybe it was because I actually got to yack with all my relatives.Seriously,we rarely have occasions like this where we can just laze around.

Oh well.There you have it.My depressing story.Oh did i forget to mention the reason this might be my last tme there?Even I'm not too sure but it seems like another company is buying over the bungalows and my dad won't be able to rent it anymore.=(........Oh well,at least I can keep my memories of that place.=)

One Of the World's Most Inspirational Poems/Stories.And My Personal Favourite.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Have you ever read this story?It helped me a while back and has since been one of my favourite stories.I guess it just gives me inspiration to start a new day fresh and happy.Here it goes then....

FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND.

One night, a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to himand the other to the Lord. When the last scene flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of his life, there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that many times, along that path, they were the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with meall the way, but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you saw only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
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Apparently there were 3 versions of the story.All of them are very similar and the real author is believed to be Mary Stevenson.But doubts remain.You be the verdict.

To read all three versions, here is the link=http://www.wowzone.com/fprints.htm
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There is also a "Footprints Hymn"

Upon the shore, I walked with Him at even
And I looked back upon the path we’d trod
And in the sand I traced our way at even
And I was glad I’d walked through life with God:
For side by side we’d journeyed through together
All through the world’s wide wilderness of care
And side by side we’d journeyed through to even:
Safe at his side the Lord my God had brought me here.

But in my joy I caught a strain of sadness
To give me pause when thinking of my way
For on the shore I saw he’d left me lonely
When I had most the need of him to stay:
When I was tried he’d left me worn and wandering,
He’d left me lone when I was fighting fears,
He’d let me tread the steepest slopes in solitude
Before he came back to my side to dry my tears.

But then the Lord drew near to me in comfort
And in his tenderness he made it plain
That in the times when dread and darkness threatened
He was my shield and shelter from the pain:
For on his shoulders he was gently bearing
And on his shoulders I from harm was free:
The single trace of footprints of the Master,
The single trace of footprints shows he carried me.

So on the shore I walk with Him at even;
I face the latter days of life secure,
For if my pilgrimage reserves me sorrow
The footprints show that He is strong and sure:
If I am near the gates of heaven weary,
No longer strong enough to stride alone
The footprints show that he is there to carry me:
The footprints show the Lord my God will bear me home.

I'm Bored.Period.

I'm positively,100% bored.

Oh,although I started watching the OC which was helpful.Still.I'm bored.
Believe me.Getting back exam results isn't what its cracked up to be.Especially if you are the one who doesn't study diligently.

Anyone for movies??

I'm Baaaackkkk!!!!

Monday, October 24, 2005

I'm Back!

After a short break due to my final exams I'm back with new stuff to think about.

Oh well,as I said finals are over and I am so thankful that it is.I seriously doubted if I could last those three long weeks of deprived sleep and rest.Ah..'tis blissful to finally have the chance to wake up late again.

However,I do not look forward to getting my results back.Aih..as usual I don't learn my lesson and put of studying until the last minute.=P
Although,I did start earlier this time around.I just hope it pays off.=)

Anyway, this little thought has been going on in my head for some time now.It's not really a thought actually,more like a statement of some sort.Haha.
So here it goes...Drum roll please...

I HAVE VERY LITTLE SELF CONFIDENCE.

There,I've said it.I guess it really sunk in during my Sunday School camp 2 weeks back.The teacher was like "Is there anyone who wants to come up and share their opinions on this matter?"....Naturally no one went up.Then she added this little line.."Anybody with enough self confidence to come up here?"...THAT was my cue.It just got me thinking I guess..Oh well...better start working on it I guess.=P

Children Learn What They Live

Friday, October 07, 2005

If a child lives with criticism
he learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility
he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule
he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame
he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerence
he learns to be patient.
If a child lives with encouragement
he learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise
he learns to appreciate
If a child lives with fairness
he learns justice.
If a child lives with security
he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval
he learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance and friendship
he learns to find love in the world.

P.S.= I just could not agree more.=)

I Want My Desserts Too!!!

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Guess what?

Ok I'll tell you.You guys might think I'm so way behind time or something but....

I just realised that....

S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D.

Spelt backwards is....

D.E.S.S.E.R.T.S.

So now that I feel soooooo stressed out..I'm gonna go munch on something...Weeee!

Just Some Light Thinking

Monday, September 26, 2005

You think you're superior to others?Think again.Sure we may be more of this or that but that doesn't make us perfect either.No one is.Therefore ,we are not superior to anyone, no matter what you may think.

So you think the world would be a better place if everyone was like you?Every single person?No it won't.Think about it.If everyone was exactly like you, because you think you are the best, then they are also bound to have the same weaknesses as you.Who can you tell your problems to if everyone is going through the same problem?

The next time you think that you are better than somebody else, dismiss such a thought.So you might be better at most things but it won't be everything, trust me.That's why God made each of us diffirent.Everyone has diffirent strenghts and weaknesses.The point is so that we can lean on each other in one way or another.To share our problems, hopes and dreams.So that there is always someone we can always count on in troubled times.God included of course.

It's a nice thought.=)

Bye-bye CF 2005....

Saturday, September 24, 2005

CF officially ended today.Awhhhh..........prepare for waterworks.No la.

It was a bittersweet ending.Bitter as it had to end and sweet because we gained so much through it all.

We'll definately miss all our seniors!Without them....welll, you can guess what CF would be like.All we can do now is wish you all the best of luck in your upcoming SPM exams and of course in life.Thanks a bunch guys!We'll never forget you!

Untitled.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Well.Things have been dull these last few day. Nothing much has been happening. Actually scrtach that.NOTHING has been happening.Other than the not-so occasional teasing from my friends that is.They just come up with new names everyday.I'm astounded.=P

Everyday the same old same old routine.Go to school.Come back.Do homework.TRY to study but fail miserably.Yadda yadda.....You get my picture. =(

I just wish I had more time to study.BUT.Yes there is always a but, the homework just keeps piling in.It doesn't help either when my laziness gets the better of me.I guess I COULD cut down on my nap time, but it's HARD.Really, really hard.*Sigh*...Someone save me.

On the other hand, I have been doing some unnecessary thinking.Yes, unnecessary by my standards.There are times when my mind is just jumbled up with thoughts that I can totally forget what I was supposed to be thinking about.Figures that I should be paying more attention to my upcoming end year exams rather than on unnecessary things.

Well, back to the unnecessary thinking part, I have noticed that people tend to compare you to another person who is smarter, more hardworking, more dependable etc. etc..In short, better than you in their opinion.But, do keep in mind that it is only in their opinion that they think that that certain someone is better than you. You can't take it to personally as you do not know what other people think about you just yet.

Yet despite all the faults people tend to find in you, they also tend to overlook your good points and strengths.Sad as it may seem.If you have an answer to this question, do enlighten me.

Yes.These are among the things I have been thinking about rather than focusing on my exams.

My Priorities Ain't Straight.Big Surprise...Not.

Monday, September 12, 2005

*Sigh*....don't mind me.I just feeling like sighing at the moment.Thinking about certain things are just too depressing to bear.

My homework pile is piling up for example.Pretty soon I won't be able to see over the top of it. I am, and always will be a procrastinator.*Sigh*

End year exams are coming soon.AND I still don't get my additional maths.AND physics.AND chemistry.AND a whole lot more.*Sigh*

I think I need to get a move on with my unending pile of homework.

Life is sad.*Longgggggg sigh*

Disappoint. Disappointment. Disappointed. You Choose.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Bear in mind that this post has nothing to do with people I am disappointed with.Seriously.On with the topic.....

I hate disappointing people.I really, really do.

It's nobodys fault.It's just that when I can't live up to the expectation of some people, I just have this really bad feeling in the pit of my stomach so to say.

For example, and I won't mention any names here, but teachers in particular seem to expect a lot from their students.Believe me, the pressure is there most of the time, if not all the time.I wonder at times if teachers realise that we don't only have to study for one subject but 10!Or 11 or 12 in some cases.When they set a certain grade because they somehow, believe, that you can do it when you feel it in your guts that you can't, it just adds extra unwanted pressure.Some teachers can be understanding.However, others, and again I won't mention names, can go to the extend of saying that a certain subject is not important and therefore we need not study too hard for it.

There are of course numerous occations where I feel really bad because I can't live up to a persons expection.Feeling that you yourself can accomplish a task that is expected of you and feeling that you really can't do it, yet it is expected of you to do better is two completely different feelings. However, if you able to do it then well done.

I admit that self confidence does play a role in this, however important it might be to some people. Sadly, I don't possese that much and it is pretty obvious.

I DO try my best.Honestly.It's just that when my best isn't good enough for some people and they give you that "You-could-have-done-better" look, I just can't bear it.And then there are the people who expect so much from you that when you don't live up to their expectations, they get angry and make you feel rotten.

I know I shouldn't feel the way I do, but I just can't help it at times even though I know I did my best because I see the disappointed look in their eyes.I feel awful for letting them down.

I really hope I am not the only one who goes through this.

I think I'll go get some coffee now to drown my sorrows.It's too late to eat even though I would love to munch on something.So coffee will have to do.Tata~ =)

HIV victims.Should We Discriminate?

Sunday, September 04, 2005

HIV/AIDS.Yes, a word that means a lot to some people.Especially those who are stricken with such a disease.

I'm sure most of you by now would have heard this advertisement on the radio.To those who don't, let me give you a rough summary of it.

It starts of with various people speaking.One by one they introduce themselves by saying their name and occupation.I cant exactly remember all so I'll just make up a few la.It goes something lika "I'm Eric.I'm a consultant.I'm Daniel.I'm a doctor.I'm Jenny and I'm a biotechnition."There are about ten or so people speaking up.Then...when all is said..a woman says "One of these people is HIV positive.Can you tell?......(Music plays in the background)...."Your ears do not discriminate.Why should you?".

I've always thought this advertisement was a great way to enlighten some on the topic.I never get tired of hearing it.It was really thought provoking and I totally agree with it.

Discrimination is common nowadays.But sticking to the topic, discrimination against HIV positive people is also common.Being humans, we sometimes tend to look at things in black and white.We tend to block out things that seem foreign to us.In the light of this topic, we tend to shun people who are different from us.That includes disabled people as well but thats a whole other story.

It sholudn't be the case however. Have you ever thought about how they might feel?That maybe all they need at this time in their lives is a friend?Someone to be there for them?A shoulder to cry on?Yet, we do the exact opposite.By shunning them and making them feel like outcasts.Do you actually think that they like carrying this disease?Not knowing if they might be able to fight it?They are people like us after all.People with feelings, hopes and dreams.

Cases of HIV infected people are rising everyday in Malaysia.Latest statistics show that one out of every four Malaysians tested for HIV turns out positive.Year by year the government tries to do something to help these people.Some attempts are successful.Others not.

Not everyone likes to admit it.But we do tend to discriminate one way or another.However, there is always a chance for us to change.If we are willing to make the change that is.

Conclusion : Should we discriminate?You be the judge of that.

Me.My Life.My Thoughts.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

My Life(At the moment)

School reopened yesterday.No more getting up late.No more sleeping till noon.No more lazing around.No more fooling around.And so on and so forth.

Getting back my August test results has not been a fun experience.Oh wait.Getting back any results, be it a monthly test or exmination, isn't always fun for me.I think I suffer from pre-results sickness.My hands get clammy,I feel like there are hundreds of butterflies in my stomach and so on.I hate it.But I guess I can't expect much.After all, its my own doing.

I don't always consider myself fortunate.Many a times I neglect to open my eyes and actually see the things I have and only focusing on the things other people have and the things I do not have.I don't always realise that being able to live another day with all my loved ones is already a blessing.I guess it is true when they say that you will only realise what you have after you have lost it.I know its bad.And I know I need to change.But I'm only human.Fortunately I do realise it after a while and start repenting.I may not be THE most fortunate person in the world, but I do know that I am more fortunate than millions of other people, children especially, who don't even have the daily necessities needed to live, around the world.So yes, I am thankful for all the gracious gifts God has abundently showered on me although I don't always know it. It just takes me a bit of time(maybe a lot at times) to realise how good I have it compared to others.That, and constant reminder from my parents.

Taking the opportunity here to tell everyone how much they mean to me.

My Thoughts(At the moment)

I may have many obstacles to go through in life, but I just hope that I would be able to go through it all and not just give up hope half way through.God, after all, is my pillar of strength even when everything alse fails.Many people, yes suicidal people especially, just tend to give up hope when all seems lost.They just don't realise that even though at times when they think there is no hope left, God is always there.Just a simple conversation to God, can make a whole lot of difference.People just don't realise that every single person is important in God's eyes, regardless of how you look, what you wear and so on.Everybody has a part to play in his or her own lifetime.Be it a small role or a big one.Haven't you heard?

It's the small things in life that you do that make the big differences in you.

So...how about starting the day of with a smile?Or doing a good deed?Or being nice to someone?Or settle some indifference?It just takes a little effort to make a big difference.

Of course I'm sure some of you might wonder whether I do this all the time.The answer is simple.I don't follow my own instructions.But I am not hypocritical(Most of the time anyway).So what right do I have to advise others on what I myself don't always do?Well, this is yet another simple question.I DO try most of the time.But as I said before, I just take time to notice what goes on around me.So, if I am not able to follow what I myself preach, this just might help another person.

Reunion.Or so I thought.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Reunion.Should mean a lot to some people.There are reunion dinners and parties and so on and so forth.Well, I had a reunion, uh, 'get-together', shall we say.Or so I THOUGHT.

Started out as a normal day.Had many a things planned for the day.Left the house at 10. 45-ish.Reached Sunway Pyramid at 11.00-ish.It was a fun getting reacquainted with a few old friends.Seriously.

Then we met all our other long, lost, but not forgotten friends at the bowling alley at let's say 2.00 p.m.

Surprisingly, our organizer was there.So were a few other people.On time.Considering we,Malaysians, who are always so 'punctual'.It was a big feat.

This reunion was for my Standard 6 year.Not everybody was there though.Predictable.Just to let you know that I wasn't miss sociable in primary school,not that I'm very sociable now la.Thus, most of my former classmates didn't recognise me although I recognised most them.Typical.It was pretty evident from the blank faces some of them gave me as though they were trying to place me from somewhere but could not.All in all, the whole 'reunion' as some would call it, for me at least, was awkward.Really, really, really awkward.But maybe it's just me.

It wasn't all bad though.Once everybody got warmed up to each other, people started to mingle and get reacquainted with each other.Phewww....At least it wasn't a total disaster as people just kept going in and out and not really bothering to talk to one another.It would have been better if more people had turned up but hey, at least some people tried to turn up.We should just be thankful.

I just wish I didn't feel so awkward.*sigh*

August exams...oops..i mean TESTS.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Yup.August tests are finally and officially over.What a relief.For me at least.Yes, I didn't exactly study before hand.Cramming at the last minute was terrible.Stress and pressure was getting to me.I didn't think I could last another day.

I feel so liberated! I feel so happy! I feel so.......tired...sleepy...exhausted.Yup....the after effects of not getting enough sleep due to my laziness in not preparing earlier and thus, staying up late for the last five nights cramming.

You'd think that after going through the same routine for my mid-terms would actaully teach me a lesson.Think again.I just never learn my lesson.Such a depressing thought.

Another thing I noticed about myself.I just tend to set certain things to do in a day and not fulfilling them.Thus, emphasises my procrastinator status.Man, I feel so depressed thinking bout this and pondering on it.Ugh.

*Note to self:This is ONLY August TESTS.End year examinations are yet to come.

I feel so much 'better' now.Bear with me.

I (now) Know......

Sunday, August 14, 2005

A few things I have come to realise.

I (now) know that........

.....being myself is good enough for God.Nothing else matters.
....it is really no use trying to be someone else.
....getting to know people who judge me by what I look like on the outside are just a waste of my time.
....I can not please EVERYBODY.
....I love my family, friend and God more than anything else in the world.
....the things that count most in life are the things that can't be counted.
....telling the truth ALL the time can be hard.
....revising at the last minute is pointless.Seriously.
....doing something to the best of your abilities is what should matter the most and not what others think of it.
....our purpose in life should be to see one another through, not through one another.
....I can't be frank all the time.
....I am a lazy bum.Most of the time anyway.
....the flaws in us are the things that make us unique.
....being true to yourself is important.
....obstacles are the things we see when we take our eyes off our goals. *adapted from the book "Something To Smile About"
....if you can't love yourself and God first, don't bother trying to love someone else.
....no one is perfect.
....constantly reminding someone of something they involuntarily did or said to you that you did not like even though they apologised profusely can get old.Really la. Just forgive and forget.
....forgiveness doesn't come easy to some people.
....being mean has its price.
....God's steadfast and undying love for me is forever.
....I should never judge a book by its cover.Actually,I shouldn't judge at all.
....life has its ups and downs.
....life is only going to get tougher as I get older.
....among the things that you can give and still keep are your word, a smile, and a grateful heart. * adapted from the book "Something To Smile About"
....believing in myself all the time is hard.But I can always try.
....everyone is equal.No one is different from the other.
....money isn't everything.
....being a catholic is cool.
....my musical talents are limited.Very limited.
....physics and me just don't go together. Sad as it would seem.
....I am not a genius and never will be no matter how hard I try.But wait.EVERYBODY knew that.
....if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all.
....I don't mix well with rude people.
....my concentration span is limited.
....giving people the benefit of the doubt can be a good thing.
....I should think before I act.
....making the right choices in life ain't always easy.

Split Decisions

Friday, August 12, 2005

Ok.I don't know what is worse.My inability to actually hold a book in front of me and study or this stupid haze.

Considering the fact that my tests are in,oh lets say, three days, the most obvious thing to do at the moment is pick up my books and start cramming.Really cram.Hard.I hate last minute revising although I don't even make it a point to start revising earlier.Go figure.

The haze is getting worse day by day.My eyes are getting sore.Throat is not feeling any better.Ugh.

I don't feel like studying although I absolutely must.Somebody save me!!Hehe~
Maybe I'll just blame my poor test results on the haze.It's a good reason.A VERY good reason.

Hail All!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Well well well.Today was quite an eventful day I MUST say.Although I feel a little light haeded at the moment, bet most of you guys know why,it wasn't a totally horrible day.

7.00 a.m.Off to school.The haze is getting worst by the day though.Yeah a real understetement that was.To actually say that the haze will not improve in the next few days is the truth.I hate living like this,where all you worry about is how much smoke you breathe in and coughing till your lungs hurt and your eyes are hurting all the time.The list goes on and on mind you.Ugh Ugh UGH!!

12.45 p.m.Went home early today and was totally grateful as I REALLY couldn't stand another minute of inhaling all that smoke.There won't be school tomorrow by the way Woohoooo!Exams, or should I say tests, as Germae puts it is next week though. I am DEAD.

I witnessed a miracle today.However,I wont go into the details.You can just ask me personally.Just remember that God works.Believe that.


Anyway,back to the title, there was a hailstorm today! Not everybody witnessed it though.Sad.It REALLY wasn't something you would wanna miss.I'm not too sure where the hailstorm took place, and mind you, it was not a BIG one, but I'm pretty sure most people in Subang Jaya were able to witness it.People living in Petaling Jaya however,did not I think.It actually rained ICE for a good 2 to 3 minutes.We even went outside to pick them up.It's not an everyday occurence in Malaysia so you can just imagine us going out and staring in amazement at the ice.Yup yup,at least today wasn't a bad day.Save for the haze.

Hope the haze clears soon.I just can't bear sitting for exams, i mean tests, with the haze as it hurts my eyes.Haihhhh.

Thoughts for the Day

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

So......Another day is over.Not a very fruitful one I must say.To me anyway.
I've been feeling rather low these past few days.I really have no idea why.

Anyway....I was reading a rather interesting article today.The topic?
Loving your body.
Well,so the article didn't exactly print that heading, but it's my own rendition of it. Trust me,I actually did read something relating to that.

Ever noticed how nowadays most people,teenagers especially,to name a few,are well,kinda obsessed about the way they look?Not that I'm saying it's a bad thing.BUT some actually go overboard and would do just about ANYTHING to achieve the perfect body.

The article I was reading ,talked about a lady who is a fitness counselor and yet she isn't exactly what you would picture a fitness counselor to look like. Yes,she didn't have the perfect body and the whole package.The article went on about how this lady just didn't care about what other people thought of her as long as she was content with who she is.

Thats the problem nowadays isn't it?People put more emphasis on what they look like on the outside rather than what they put in the inside.

Body conscious people just can't enjoy life to the fullest in my opinion.When you actually count every single calorie you consume in a day,even that small piece of cake or chocolate,then you really need to get a life.

So what if you've put on just the slightest bit of weight?Nobody actually cares la.If they did,then these are the people you shouldn't be mixing with.It only proves that they like you for what you look like on the outside rather than what you portray on the inside.

So ok,peer pressure does play a part in this I suppose.Teenagers just feel pressured to be the perfect person so that they will be accepted by all.But most of them don't actually realise that you can't please everyone.Nobody's perfect.People do tend to find faults in you one way or another.Most of us judge others on how they look on the outside for starters.I mean,come on,we are only humans after all.No point denying it.I am no different.Though,I'm trying to change.

However,if ever you need assurance that there IS someone who loves you for who you are and not how you dress, how you look like on the outside,how poor you are, etc. etc......just remember GOD is always there in your time of need for a friend.His love for us is unconditional even if we don't always take notice of it.Truly.

I,for one,am eternally grateful for his undying love for me.You should feel the same way.=)

Hey People!!

Monday, August 08, 2005

Well well WELL!!After much thought and consideration,I FINALLY decided to set up a blog.Courtesy of some people.I actually feel really inferior to some people,though i think i should not.

My english is rapidly deteriorating for instance.Exams are just around the corner and YES,yours truly hasn't started revising.Man,i just feel so......ugh.

Ok ok.So this is not the cheerful blog i intended to start out with.But hey,I guess this IS a place to express one's feelings.So please please please,do not think i will always post such depressing posts.I actually DO feel happy most of the time.Mood swings aside of course.