Friday, April 13, 2007

I just have to let this out.

Todays trip was okay. Not spectacular. Honestly, it leans towards boring and pointless. I am going to be lying when I write my reflective journal later. What to do? :( We can't be anonymous when we submit them.

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Honestly, I didn't think Malaysian Studies would be that bad. I tried to stay positive. All the complains about LAN subjects from my friends, I tried to ignore. My positivity only lasted for so long. Can't say I didn't try.

Can't say I love the teacher either. Can't blame her though. I would be bored to tears if I were to teach Malaysian Studies for the 6th year running. Then again, I'll give her some credit. Maybe she DOES love it. I dont' believe it, but I'll pretend too.

Btw, my eyes hibernate when I enter the class. :D

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Second week of classes and I already feel the strain of my workload. And to think I was complaining about my first semester being too boring. I take back those words. Please, let me take them back. Some prioritizing is in high demand here. *Looooooong sigh*

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Okay. Off to do my Businees Computing now. I don't want to fail this class. Somehow, I don't feel that confident.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Driving at night is so nerve wrecking I think I need some nerve replacements. Seriously.

ANYWAY... HERE GOES.

How much have YOU changed in the last 10 years ?


April 1 1997.
1) How old were you?
8

2)Where did you go to school?
SK SS17

3)Where did you work?
I was 8.

4)Where did you live?
Subang Jaya

5)Where did you hang out?
Eh. I went to school and came home everyday. Maybe the occasional visit to a
friend's house.

6)Did you wear glasses?
Nope. Gone are the days.

7)Who was your best friend?
Had a bunch of great friends :D

8)How many tattoos did you have?
None.

9)How many piercings did you have?
2. One on each ear.

10)What car did you drive?
None.

11)Had you been to a real party?
If you count birthday parties then, yeah.

12)Had your heart broken?
NAH.


April 1 2002

1.) How old were you?
13

2.) Where did you go to school?
SMK SS17.

3.) Where did you work?
I worked for my aunt during the hols. Photostating paper is fun when you get paid. Fun :)

4.) Where did you live?
Subang Jaya.

5.) Where did you hang out?
Eh. Subang Parade I guess. Sunway Pyramid.

7.) Who was your best friend?
I can't remember. New school, new crowd.

8.) Who was your regular-person crush?
I think it was still Aiman. I know. *shivers*

9.) How many tattoos did you have?
None.

10.) How many piercing did you have?
2. Although I really can't remember when I did my next piercings.

11.) What car did you drive?
I couldn't drive.

12) Had you had your heart broken?
Nope.


April 1 2007

1.) How old are you?
18

2) Where do you work?
Still studying.

3) Where do you live?
Wangsa Baiduri. WHICH is still in Subang.

4.) Do you wear glasses?
Yes. When NEEDED.

5.) Where do you hang out?
Still at pyramid. Asia Cafe. College?

6.) Who is your best friend?
They know who they are :)

8.) Do you talk to your old friends?
Yupppp.

9.) How many piercing do you have?
5. 2 on left ear, 3 on right.

10.) How many tattoos?
Nil.

11.) What kind of car do you drive?
I don't have my own car :( Mum's Waja is the next best thing.

12.) Has your heart been broken?
Nah.

And I tag...

Wern Ching.
Germae.

Sorry I am so lazy to do the 28 secrets. You guys probably know all about me anyway :D

Of Goodbyes And Envious Feelings.

Monday, April 02, 2007

Some of my college friends have left. They hope to get better scholarships. If they don't get it, they still aren't coming back. I miss them already.

I'm not proud of this next bit. Truthfully, I feel a lil'....... envious. I wish I didn't, but I just can't help it. Sometimes, I wish they wouldn't go. I know. I know its stupid to feel this way. Selfish even. I mean, if I had the chance, I would totally leave for better things too. So who am I to say they can't strive for better things in life when given the chance ? I wouldn't want to won't contradict myself.

Maybe this can be a form of motivation for me. It will motivate me. Seeing my friends leave makes me believe and have higher hopes that I'll have my chance to make my mark in this big ol' world one day. I will see much more of this world before I leave it. I pray I will.

As much as I want to view this parting as a good thing for both parties, I still wish this feeling of envy hadn't even surfaced.

Ok. *smacks self* Stop willowing in self pity . Because I know that deep down I really do. Feel happy for them, that is.

Two of them have left. It was so sweet of them to drop by today to say goodbye. I realy hate goodbyes. I mean goodbyes when you actually mean goodbye. Not the I'll see you tomorrow kind of goodbye. I didn't think Iwould feel so sad since I've only known them for about 3 months. I guess you never really can tell how much some people have grown on you.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

I still do not know how I let myself get talked into situations like this. I must be more hard headed!.. Its hard when you're out numbered two to one though. Sigh. At least I got some good screams in.

I never liked horror movies ( I still don't! ) BUT...........

I actually prefered the horror movie I watched today compared to Bridge To Terabithia ( I can see some people smirking right about now. I know who you are ). Honestly, I just didn't get the whole one - minute - its - fantasy - and - the - next - it - isn't plot of BTT. No insult intended to all you BTT fans. You like it, I don't. At least the horror movie had some understandable plot albeit some bad acting. I will NEVER set foot in the cinema to watch another horror movie. I said this before but this time I mean it. My fragile (chicken) heart can't take no more. I love my lights switched on for horror movies with pillows to hug and to cover my eyes and a much more comfy couch to lie back on.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Its currently 8.54 in the morning and I am blogging because I just have nothing to do now. I rather not browse through friendster for the gazzilion-th time. Or check my email account for that matter since none of my friends email each other at this God - forbid - anyone - should - be - awake - at - this - time - except - me hour. Adeline will have something to say about this. :(

I think I am currently going through this phase where I love music inspired by the fifties. Mum says its G.I. music. There's just something unique about them. Kudos to Xtina Aguilera for getting me interested. Although I'm not a big fan of her, its hard not to love her for the moment. She looks so hot in her new video. Only girls like Xtina, Gwen and Scarlet can make that shade of lipstick look hot and not like some clown. Hehe. I am currently hooked on Candyman. Hurt and Ain't No Other Man was good too. Just listen to her latest album, Back To Basics. Its different. Thats all I can say :D I am not in any way promoting her album. If you hate her, its fine by me. This album is just a rough idea about the music I am currently into.

Oh. Since I am being random now, listen to this song by Haley James-Scott. Its called Halo. I stumbled upon it while watching season 3 of One Tree Hill.

Believe it or not.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Believe it or not, I'm walking on air
I never thought I could feel so free
Flying away on a wing and a prayer
Who could it be?
Believe it or not its just me.

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Presentation....over.
Finals................over.
Driving exam...over.

Passed 2/3. Haven't gotten my results for finals yet though.

I feel so freeeeeeeee. Anyone up for movies?

I am a confused being.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

The whole hype about SPM results has died down a little. I think.
I'm still a little unsure about my feelings towards my results to be honest.
I feel confused for some reason.
I think I'm feeling somewhere between satisfied - euphoric.
When people congratulate me, I just nod as it is only polite.
At least they feel happy for me. At least they feel something.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

I feel as if a landslide of work has suddenly come crashing down on me. And it sucks to be honest. Usually I strive on being occupied but this is just too much. You know whats worst? Its the fact that I've been doing this assignment for soooo long and yet I feel as if I never really progressed from day one. It kills me to think that I'm not as productive as I thought I was. I guess a reality check is in order right now. I know my priorities ain't straight but I just didn't realize they were sooooo way off track. Things don't get any better when some news come up that seem to crash with what my plans.

Here's the deal. I've got this presentation next Tuesday. I've busted my ass for like the longest of time, seriously putting time into this presentation, and it just may not work out because I have this thing called stage fright. Heard of it? Empathize with me.

Finals are in less than 2 weeks. I haven't started revising. I'm not particularly worried about maths, unless they dock more points for seriously stupid-even-my-sister-could-understand answers. I missed out this totally small working leading to the answer that anyone in their right mind could understand and they docked my marks. Honestly, I feel as if I'm being taught to be stupid, as one of my teachers once kindly put it. Wise words indeed. On the other hand, I'm totally freaked out about English. I know. I must have sunk quite low to worry about English. But I want my HD. It kills me that the one subject I thought I was good at and actually thought I could do well in prove that I'm not all that. For the record, I don''t think I'm all that. Just better than my current state.

Then there's this thing called SPM results. Truthfully, I do not feel anything at the moment. Not happy or worried or whatever people in my situation are supposed to be feeling. I have friends who say they probably won't get good shuteye till the day actually comes. One even said he/she will probably miss college for the whole day to go and collect the results. He/she has plans to celebrate his/her results I reckon. I sincerely hope I'll be able to join you. A part of me wants to bury it forever and never knowing how I fared yet another part frankly, is dying to know how well/badly I did. Actually I just hope it was good. BUT the day the results come out somewhat clashes with my finals. To take or not to take my results? That is the question. If I did as well as my expectations, I will continue with my finals in a totally euphoric state. The possibility of missing out on a HD may not even dampen my mood. If it doesn't turn out well, I'll just start writing a long apology letter to my almost bright future. I'll even throw in a few teardrops for good measure. I'm not being pessimistic. I'm just being real.

Oh it doesn't stop there. Driving test. I do not, I repeat, do not want to fail this. My instructor thinks I'll be ready. I still can't do my slope correctly. He'll probably cry when he sees me rolling back on the slope. I want more confidence. I think I'll pay any price for that. I'll buy some for my presentation as well.

If your eyes have reached this point, I seriously hope you did not waste any precious time reading this. I just wanted to share some 'joy'. Heh.

Have a happier day to all reading this.

God is Good.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

The best family in the world?
I got them.

The best relatives?
I got them.

The greatest cousins?
I got them.

The sweetest, nicest, fabulous, money-can't-buy friends?
I got them.

The best 18th birthday?
I'm sooooo blessed to have had :D

Monday, February 19, 2007

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

On this happy, happy time, I promise I won't start ranting on anything trivial.

Not about how much I despise my lack of will power when good food starts pouring in. Yee Sang is soooo yummy.

Not about how I dread the thought that I may not be able to fit into my clothes by the time college starts again. Not to mention the clothes I just bought for CNY and my birthday.

Not about how I've already been gaining weight even before CNY started.

Oooopps. Guess I didn't exactly keep my promise :). Teehee.

ANYWAY, I won't dampen your spirits lar. Enjoy the new year keeping in mind all the things that mean the most to each of us.

Once again,

Happy Chinese New Year to you and all at home.

PS: Await my arrival at your house. Ang pows, here I come!

Monday, February 12, 2007

As far as stupid mistakes go, I've made one of the stupidest mistakes of all. Such simplicity in a question and yet my puny, addled cerebrum could not comprehend.

Goodbye HD. It was nice for a fleeting moment when I thought you were in my grasp :(

I am going to wallow in self pity now.

Me. Bored. Yup.

Friday, February 09, 2007

I am bored out of my wits.

Business Maths and ECS mid-terms are next week.

I am currently aware that my time being wasted writing this post yet I can do no thing about it.

I should be studying.

Studying is what I should be doing.

Somebody needs to give me a reality check.

Sigh.


I want to do some

probably here.

But of course...... I do not possess such moolah.

CNY is coming.

Yikes. The weight is coming back on.

Packing Part 2

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Right right.

Back to packing.

Actually I'm sort of embarassed bout this next bit. DO keep in mind that I did this next thing many, many, many, MANY years ago.

While cleaning out one of my cupboards, I found these.

Do not laugh. Or cry. Or roll your eyes.
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YUP. Britney Spears. The ex-Princess of Pop. Notice that these pictures were taken wayyyyy back when she was little miss innocent. She still had a decent amount of clothes on. Its a far cry from the Britney who doesn't wear knickers that we see ever so often in the gossip news today. Back then at least she wore undergarments. At least I think so. Unless she always had this little fetish for not wearing them. She could have pulled it off, since she didn't expose that much back then . Whatever.

Ok I'll admit it. I used to be an avid Britney fan back then. Yes, wayyy back then. She was the sweet lollipop princess of pop. And she had the figure and looks although not the voice. But she had catchy tunes that soared up the pop charts. With record breaking albums and what not.

When I found these pictures, I remembered that I had wanted to make Britney scrapbook. Believe me, it wasn't easy getting all those pictures. I think I bought every single magazine that featured her back then. Constantly scouted the newspapers as well.

Every little gossip about her I kept. Btw, I used to like one of her dancers. Heh. Its the guy at the far left.

Silly, I know. What can I say, maturity hadn't caught up to me at that point in life. Anyway I'll post more, er, interesting stuff next time.

There really isn't much going on in my life now. I don't have thought provoking musings at the moment. I'm just waiting for an inspiration of some sort I guess.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Just for you Adeline!...Look closely at one of the pictures. Hope you like it!

Packing Part 1

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Moving, apart from being tiresome surely has its perks.

I get a new bed.
I get a new wardrobe.
I get a new study table.
I get new bookshelves.
I get new sofas, furniture, etc.
I get a new dining table.
I get a spectacular view of my surrounding area at night.
And etc, etc.

I think I've adapted well to my new surroundings. Its certainly different. But I'm fine and dandy.

Now packing. It was tiresome. As much as I wanted to savor a new surrounding, I dreaded the task of packing all my belongings and getting them sent to my new home. Thank goodness we hired a lorry for that.
Packing ment spending, possibly hours, considering the things that I have stashed away in places I don't even remember, putting my belongings into cardboard boxes, sealing and labeling them. It was tedious.
Yes yes, I'm lazy. I never denied that. Sue me.

Anyway guess what I found during those endless ours of packing?
Guess guess!!
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This!


Yes its my long forgotten Sailormoon sticker collection. It sure brought back plenty of sweet memories from my childhood.

There was a time when I used to be fanatic over stickers. Sailormoon stickers in particular. Its probably been years since I've actually set eyes on these. It was honestly nice to reminisce about a time when stickers made my world go round.

See I even had time to arrange them stickers. The one I'm pointing at was my favourite. If I'm not mistaken its Sailor Jupiter or something like that. I've got only vague memories of names. Heh. The pictures blurry. Stating the obvious I know. I admit I'm not the best photographer and honestly I know next to nil about cameras.

I did discover something else while packing. But I'll just leave that for my next post. If I don't I'll have nothing else to ramble about.

To be continued...

So far..

Sunday, January 14, 2007

I've almost gotten used to college life. ALMOST. I haven't lost my way while getting to classes at least. Hehe.

College so far has been ok. Well I can't say much as I've only had 1 week of studies. I have got no complains whatsoever with my tutors or lecturers. I love it when they really enjoy teaching us bunch of students. Especially since we are now more open to speak our mind, they can expect frequent suggestions/opinions/point of views from us. They encourage it and thats a good thing. Their enthusiasm to teach us somehow makes up for the lackadaisical attitude of some previous teachers. God knows I've had to deal with the kind of teachers that really have no passion for teaching and teach as if it was a huge chore. I really hope my next few semesters continue this way.

Anyway, I'll have more interesting posts soon. Till then, take care and God bless.

XOXO,
Sara.

Merrrrrrrry Christmas

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Its hard writing a post with someone breathing down your neck.Ughhhh.

I wanna go to a place where Christmas decorations adorn the streets and the smell of Christmas fills the air. I guess I feel this way mainly because I have not a SINGLE christmas decor this year. Moving is soooo tiresome.Hehe. But I'm not complaining.

Anyhow just to wish all of you out there a

Blessed Christmas!!

'Tis the season to be jolly.........'

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

You know, its strange really.
To know that one minute you're just starting out in secondary school and the next you're taking your first step into college. Its not that I WANT to be in secondary school right now. Seriously, to have the thought that I no longer have to fit myself into a school uniform for a good 250++ mornings in a year is quite nice. Scratch that. Its really nice. Heh. That uniform never suited me anyway.

I can still remember vividly my first day in form1. Oh how I couldn't wait to start secondary school. That feeling of starting something new was euphoria back then. That was then I guess. Now ultimate euphoria means new shoes, clothes and bags! Right now, I just can't believe that its all over. The past five years of my life that is.

Till now, I still have trouble digesting the fact that I've finished the chapter. It honestly feels like it was just yesterday that I opened this chapter in the book of my life and scanned the first few lines of the page. Now I've finished all 352641756087 pages. Now the book's closed and ready to be shelved in the part labeled Memories.

Sometime in the future I may just decide to take it down, blow off that layer of dust, remove the cobwebs and flip through it once again. By then I may just have grown more mature (hopefully) and laugh at all the things I did back then. Like stalking guys. But we'll discuss that in a different post. Or not.

Right now I'm just a fille tring to find my way in this big, big world.
This new chapter of my life has just begun and I have yet to engross myself in it. Oh well. Might as well indulge in it since I have nothing else to do :D

Friday, December 01, 2006

Come next Thursday, at approximately 4.30 p.m. , my cerebrum is going on a longgggggg holiday :) :)

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Saw this little bird of night perched on a tree in my neighbour's garden. A rare sight indeed. It was just sitting there, staring into oblivion. I have no idea what it was staring at. It sat there long enough for me to snap a few pictures. Didn't dare to get any closer just in case it decided to attack me. Hehe. Although it did look like an owlet to me. I didn't want to take any chances though. I have no idea what type of owl this is. I'm no expert in owls :D