Sunday, November 14, 2010
I'm a sucker for any cover of Living On a Prayer. But I must say, bias aside, this mash-up makes me wanna be a rock star.
Queen of anything baby.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
So, a friend sent this to me some time ago. He felt the need to add that he wasn't a stalker and he found this by chance. Haha.
But, you know, through hard times, come rain or shine, I'll come out stronger than I can ever hope to be. Because I have Him. Aren't I a lucky fille? Bow down and kiss my toes cause I can be the queen of anything.
Have I come a long way?
I was looking through some of my blog posts from 2006. Nostalgia on high alert. I might just cry. I might. Guess what I found?
I want no regrets,
When I look back on my life,
At all the things I've done,
I don't want to see a girl looking all forlorn saying,
" What have I become? ".
I want no regrets,
When I look at my friends of long,
At all the things they have done and seen,
And turn to myself and think,
That could have been me.
I want no regrets,
When I look back on the things of the past,
At my actions and words I never meant but said,
I wish to learn now and not repeat,
From all the immature mistakes that I've made.
I want no regrets,
Even when I don't always make,
The right choices in life,
God knows I've done my best,
So I can look back and say " It's alright".
I want no regrets,
Even when the road I take,
May make life seem unbearable at times,
I know the right choices ain't always easy,
So faith in God and stubborn pride
will carry me through such hard times.
I want no regrets,
When my decisions in life,
Cause opportunities to pass me by,
When one door closes, another opens,
So I just won't sit around and cry.
So right now as I walk thorough this life,
I'll strive to do my best,
In the years to come I'll look back and say,
" I had no regrets ".
*You know you are lazy when you start to recycle old posts. But these are classics yo.
Entertain me please with something witty.
Monday, November 01, 2010
I'm so bored.
Why people don't send stupid chain mail to me anymore? I know I said I despised them but I am bored shitless right now and I need something else to read. Right, I should pick up a book.
I have resorted to send old stupid chain mail from my hotmail account to my gmail account. I know you think I am such a sad case now. Even I pity myself. Life of a recluse student when exams draw near.
Nada Cambiara Mi Amor por Ti
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Since it is a Sunday and I'm tired of reading my journals, I'll update yet again.
The Spanish language..... is sexy. Nada Cambiara Mi Amor por Ti has been on replay since morning.
Oh, I am digging my own grave and I know it by wishing too much here. Is it too much to ask for someone who speaks Spanish to sweep me off my feet? I know French is like the love language and all but Spanish songs are just..........ear-gasmic.
What do you think?
Is it true? Is it?
I sometimes wonder if it is. I may deny it all I want but there is always this flicker of doubt every time I think about it.
I'm sure deep down, it's fear. Fear for the unknown. To take the first step and open up. That's why I feel that I am quite good at keeping my emotions in check. And... sometimes I believe I have trust issues. I'm too independent for my own good sometimes.
And so what if my walls are high. They are my walls and I'll build them as high as I want to.
Not a happy camper.
I ran out of fruits. Not happy. Market only opens on Tuesday. Bother.
Time for church.
Random Fact #4
Saturday, October 30, 2010
I love strawberries. Buy me a box and make me happy.
I despise strawberry sweets, cakes, ice cream, perfume (I kid you not, have actually tried it before), icing, pudding, drinks, etc etc.
Yes, I do not like anything strawberry flavoured.
PS: Exceptions apply. I have mood swings 8456386826328 times a day.
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Random Fact #3
Thursday, October 28, 2010
So I did not forget this random facts stuff. Just been a little busy. I'm going to be a graduate soooooooon. It's all so final now. More on that later.
Anywho, random fact #3.
I'm a fickle for good grammar. I realise I feel this slight hint of annoyance every time someone writes or types out something that is not grammatically correct. But it passes in a split second. I'm not saying I'm the best, but come on. It's like Grammar for Idiots 101. I make mistakes too okay, I'm not saying I don't. Then again, the 'Manglish' probably killed good English Language for our country. Go figure.
Example: You're = You are. 'Your' does not mean you are.
King Of Anything.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
The weird people/spammers who keep commenting on my chatbox is getting pretty annoying. Not apologising if you are one of them. I stand my ground.
I realise something. Its a trend. Dang. The nerdy cute kind is love. Indeed. Teeheeeeee.
Okay, back to revision. Going out with a bang remember?
I Won't Regret This. Teeheeeeee.
Monday, October 04, 2010
My childhood was filled with Calvin and Hobbes, Archie and Garfield comics. I miss them.
I don't know what life would have been like without them honestly. The most genuine laughters maybe from those times.
"You know what's the rage this year? ...Hats."
Heheh. I love Hobbes.
Heheh. I love Hobbes."Do you believe in ghosts?"
"For a mom, sometimes she's pretty cool."
I'm contemplating this when I have kids :D"You squeeze my tears out."
Amidst the laughter and mischief, there comes a time when you never expect a comic to pull at your heartstrings. That's why Calvin and Hobbes is one of the best to me.
Amidst the laughter and mischief, there comes a time when you never expect a comic to pull at your heartstrings. That's why Calvin and Hobbes is one of the best to me. "It's psychosomatic. You need a lobotomy. I'll get a saw."
I loved Suzie :) Sorry this one might be small. Click on the strip to read it. Please don't kill those pretty eyes of yours.
"You've taught me nothing except how to cynically manipulate the system."
Enough said.
Ahhh. Sweet memories. Courtesy of Mr. Watterson . You da man.
I miss it already.
I've had an awesome 2 week break. Truly and so deeply blessed. Of course, the pockets have been singed just a little bit. Alright, I lie. A lot. But I'll be more thrifty from now on yes? But so many birthdays coming up! Macam mana? I'll survive on oats for a while. I shaaaaalllll. Not that I don't need to loose that extra weight anyway. Bother.
I'm a tad lazy to post pics right now. As always. But Facebook is there for you. Just...don't stalk. It's scary :) Hehehe. And no comments on weight whatsoever. I can't promise to be nice.
For now, I just need to get my act together and prepare for the final hurdle of uni life. Cheer me on to go out with a bang, yes? You'll be rewarded with my gratitude and lollies. In whatever colour you fancy :)
A Penny For My Thoughts
Friday, September 24, 2010
Don't tell me I am bias towards country music. I know it.
:(
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Maybe it's punishment for being careless.
I need to find that key.
Help?
So You Would Come
Monday, September 13, 2010
Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
-Hillsong United
Break Your Heart
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Yes, I'm alive.
No, I am not seeing anyone.
I was just busy. Sorry.
Thanks for asking. I hope I didn't disappoint.
Heh. Love.
Random Fact #2
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Bless The Broken Road by Rascal Flatts will never get old. Sing it for me and win my heart. I'll be putty in your hands :)
The only good thing that came out of this movie. Note the old couple. Makes me smile.
ps: For added effect, strum that guitar :)
How not to fall in love?
Friday, August 27, 2010
C, we're the stalker of the stalker of Taylor Swift. Heh. I kid. But now we know who will win our hearts :) We need a reality check.
Waiting On An Angel
Sunday, August 22, 2010
My latest of a long list of loves. I need to stop falling for guys with guitars. It's not good for me.
And Smile
Sunday, August 15, 2010
"You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like there's nobody listening,
And live like it's heaven on earth."
Random Fact #1
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Since I am constantly racking my brain for things to blog about other than rants when the exam and assignment season comes, I'm going to start this new Random Facts About Me series or whatchamacallit. Stay tuned.
Random Fact #1
I love M&M's. Only the plain milk ones though. And the one with the biscuit on the inside :) Love much. I usually hate milk chocolate as I am a dark chocolate girl, (yes, the darker the better ;D ) but I can't help but love my M&M's. Childhood love that never died. But I've matured okaaaay. I no longer fight for the orange coloured M&M's.
At Dinner
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Boy: I like ice cream.
Girl: Me too!
Boy: And I like chocolate.
Girl: Ditto.
Boy: I just....don't like them together. I hate chocolate ice cream.
Girl: *laughs* Too adorable.
Snippets.
Saturday, August 07, 2010
I just like.
One day.
Some things are too cute to boot.
I do not own the photos.
I like.
Thursday, August 05, 2010
Can you guess?
1. Go hang a salami. I'm a lasagna hog.
2. Do geese see God?
3. Was it Eliot's toilet I saw?
4. Are we not drawn onward, we few, drawn onward to new era?
5. A nut for a jar of tuna.
6. Dennis and Edna sinned.
7. Oozy rat in a sanitary zoo
8. A man, a plan, a canal: Panama!
9. Ana, nab a banana.
10. Borrow or rob?
11. Vanna, wanna V?
12. We panic in a pew.
13. Never odd or even.
14. Madam in Eden, I'm Adam.
15. Murder for a jar of red rum.
2. Do geese see God?
3. Was it Eliot's toilet I saw?
4. Are we not drawn onward, we few, drawn onward to new era?
5. A nut for a jar of tuna.
6. Dennis and Edna sinned.
7. Oozy rat in a sanitary zoo
8. A man, a plan, a canal: Panama!
9. Ana, nab a banana.
10. Borrow or rob?
11. Vanna, wanna V?
12. We panic in a pew.
13. Never odd or even.
14. Madam in Eden, I'm Adam.
15. Murder for a jar of red rum.
Give up? Visit here
Haengbok
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
I said I needed inspiration. Last night I spilled water on my laptop. It died on me. And it was still dead this morning when I took it to the shop. Not saying my lappy doesn't need to be changed already but I really do not need the hassle of getting used to a new one in my final semester. Mainly cause I was also looking at the Macbook. White is pretty.
BUT ALLELUIA MY LAPPY WORKS NOW. But the backspace key is a little funky. Can't be helped.
I've been inspired alright. Can't put my finger on it but I feel changed. At least I'm more cautious now , yes? Technology hates me. This year at least.
Boys and bugs
Monday, July 26, 2010
How cute. Idealistic maybe, but a girl can dream.
"Boys and bugs" by Poema.
I like boys that like to smile
Laugh at themselves once in a while
That can sit and talk for hours
Then in the morning, pick me flowers
Boys that like to be very clean
That are never ever mean
And can tell a witty joke
Boys that do not like to smoke
One day, I'll find you (x4)
I like boys that aren't afraid of bugs
That will always give me big warm hugs
Like to sing and play guitar
That are happy being who they are
Boys that like to be outside
And that aren't full of pride
Boys that have an honest passion
With at least a slight hint of fashion
One day, I'll find you (x4)
I like boys that are funny and artistic
That are mostly optimistic
Boys that are not very lazy
A little weird, but not too crazy
Boys that aren't afraid to cry
And will always give a second try
And will try to do their best
I want a boy not like the rest
One day, I'll find you (x4).
Laugh at themselves once in a while
That can sit and talk for hours
Then in the morning, pick me flowers
Boys that like to be very clean
That are never ever mean
And can tell a witty joke
Boys that do not like to smoke
One day, I'll find you (x4)
I like boys that aren't afraid of bugs
That will always give me big warm hugs
Like to sing and play guitar
That are happy being who they are
Boys that like to be outside
And that aren't full of pride
Boys that have an honest passion
With at least a slight hint of fashion
One day, I'll find you (x4)
I like boys that are funny and artistic
That are mostly optimistic
Boys that are not very lazy
A little weird, but not too crazy
Boys that aren't afraid to cry
And will always give a second try
And will try to do their best
I want a boy not like the rest
One day, I'll find you (x4).
Not just a typical city boy.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Uni starts tomorrow. Happy happy joy joy. And I mean it.It's getting too boring at home. And I need to stop eating. Stupid sales on chocs.
Oh boooooooooy.
Why can't I have pinchable cheeks like her and still look so adorable and cute????!!! The world is unfair.
An Interview with God
Saturday, July 17, 2010
I dreamed I had an INTERVIEW WITH GOD.
“So, you would like to interview me?” GOD asked.
“If you have time,” I said.
GOD smile. “My time is eternity… what questions do you have in mind for me?”
“What surprises you the most about humankind?”
GOD answered…
“That they get bored with childhood, that they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again.”
“That they lose their health to make money… and then lose their money to restore their health.”
“That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future.”
“That they live as if they would never die, and die as though they had never lived.”
GOD’s hand took mine… and we were silent for a while.
And then I asked, “As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons you want your children to learn?”
GOD replied, “To learn they cannot make anyone love them. All they can do is let themselves be loved.”
“To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others.”
“To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness.”
“To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in those they love, and it can take many years to heal them.”
“To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.”
“To learn that there are people who love them dearly, but simply do not yet know how to express or show their feelings.”
“To learn that two people can look at the same thing, and see it differently.”
“To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.”
“Thank you for your time,” I said humbly.
“Is there anything else you would like your children to know?”
GOD smiled, and said… “Just know that I am here.” “Always.”
-Author Unknown
Begin Again
Thursday, July 15, 2010
And here we go again.
Those 21 years seem short now. Come to think of it. I need a time machine. So I can go back to a few years and not wish I would be graduating soon.
To think I'll be graduating soon. I'm having a love hate relationship with it right now. If only applying for PR wasn't so insanely hard now, I'll gladly graduate and slog off at work.
I despise the indecisive nature of mine. To the bone. Study? Work?
The long journey ahead with infinite paths to take. Walk with me every step of the way. Please?
Missed me much?
Friday, July 09, 2010
I'm BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK. Missed me much? Will update soon aite? Just a little tired now. Passed the semester ;) Not with excellent grades but I DID try my best anyway.
Currently hooked on Colbie Caillat - Begin Again.
:)
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Happy holiday guys! Its the time when friends from the UK, Malaysia and Aus actually have the same holiday period, give or take a few. Skype date soooooooon?
Dream a little dream of me
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Puzzled muzzled. Indeed.
I had a dream. No, seriously I did. It was sweet. I don't understand how you guys were in it just yet though. And I'm usually quite good at figuring out why certain people appear in my dreams. But for the life of me I can't understand this one. But nonetheless, the memory is fading. Like always. Did I mention this dream was sweet? :)
Childish girly fantasies as usual. Maybe it was the talk I had with P the other day that made me think of you guys again. Maybe.
Ah, what the heck. I'll be happy in my dreams.
My my, just how much I missed you.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
*Blogger is being a pain because I had to retype this post 3 times.*
Finally. When you thought the day will never come. I finally had a proper meal. No more instant oats, noodles or baked beans.
Then again, I'm always restless after exams. I don't know what to do. Everyone is busy. I guess it's because everyone still has papers and come to think of it, I do have one more as well. Bah! Humbug. Teehee.
But finally right. A much needed breather. I am grateful He has helped me come this far. When I thought I would never make it.Sometimes a little faith goes a loooooooong way.
So, since the hellish week ended with a BANG yesterday, I've been...watching dramas :) Heh. And Gleeeeee! I forgot to watch it on Thursday night! Even the roomie was thinking of knocking on my door to ask me why I wasn't watching it. Awwwwwh. But nah, was too stressed out for the paper the next day to watch anyway. Tis the life.
So far, the papers have been OKAY. Except yesterday's one. But I have faith as I have said.
*Yesterday while talking to E & Y*
S: What did you think of the paper?? So hard!
E: Yeah! Then I was soooooo freaking cold! (It is winter in Melbourne for you peeps who do not know). I couldn't even write properly. My hands were freezing.
S: Yeah but my place wasn't too cold though. Yesterday was colder. And I wasn't sitting near heaters either. Hmmm, were you cold Y? (Y was sitting next to me in the exam hall)
Y: The paper was so hard it made me 'hot' just doing it. No time to feel cold also.
S & E: *burst out laughing*
Heh. I love awesome friends that can make me laugh. Even after a hard paper.
I braved the 8 degrees weather to go out and buy breakfast this morning. Because if you know me well enough, not having breakfast makes me cranky. But you still love me :) Can't wait for all my breakfast dates next week! So anyway, my cupboards were empty except for instant oats and tea packets. Nil instant noodles even. Then again, the 6 packets I bought in... March lasted me this far. Don't laugh okay! I just don't eat much instant noodles.
Sometimes, I wish I didn't have so much time to think. Because it means I need to start thinking of what to do soon. Like, real soon. (I should be graduating at the end of the year.) I hate not having a clear direction. The future is so hazy. And Melbourne's early morning foggy weather is not to blame for this one. Study, work, bum? Ok, not bum. I hate being idle anyway. I guess I contradict myself more often than not. I don't like people telling em what to do but when they don't give me their two cents, I have no idea which direction to take. Should I follow my heart? Or head? Heart or head? I don't want to regret my decision. Grrr. And don't give me that BS that life is too short for regrets etc. This is my future. Not a decision about buying that pair of heels. But I'll make up my mind soooooooon. :)
The hols will be here soooon. I'm glad I have some holiday plans. Brissy and GC here I come. But for the rest of the time I should be in Melbourne. Missing the family :( But at least they are coming in Dec. Stupid expensive air tickets.
I hate being idle so HOPEFULLY there will be some part time work to slot into my planner and keep me busy. I have some next week thank goodness (voice recording and marketing runs if you didn't know). I can't bear the thought of being under house arrest because I need to study for ONE paper :C
Heh. So there you have it. The update. I blog best when I should be doing other things. On a last note..
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
:)
Here we go again
Monday, June 07, 2010
I hate letting this vicious cycle of exam stress get to me every time the exam season comes and I feel the need to crawl into mummy's lap.
When will I ever grow up?
Coffee, my love.
Thursday, June 03, 2010
No, I shall not turn into a coffee addict. I shall nooooooooot.
Coffee is baaaaad.
Bad I tell you. Baaaaaaaaad. Turning into a sheep.
Do not succumb to the temptation.
Sigh. Denial is the first step to acceptance.
And a skinny flat white, no sugar please, always makes my day. Always.
Since I do not have a coffee maker...
*Walks to the kitchen for my instant coffee flavoured water*
When all is said and done.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Weeeeeeeek...... SWOTVAC.
Dang! Where did the semester go.
One week baby. Bring it on.
I need my Boost :)
WEEK 11
Friday, May 21, 2010
In the end, it all comes down to this. Pardon me. Exams are in 2 left corners and I have barely started to get in touch with my inner nerd self. Yes, contrary to popular belief, I do not study. I am currently rethinking my plan for the very near future and I need timeeeee. Cause I am such an indecisive brat.
Things are slowing down at least. I think. My planner does not have crazy amount of dates/meetings to attend anyway. Which is good for the moment but I realise that because of the hectic 3 months, I just can't stay put for long now. And I talk faster. Hoho. I blame it on work.
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Just a gist: (because I should be mugging my books now)
AGM is over. Forms to fill in :( But am ecstatically happy for the new committee :)
Got a part time job. Pay is not too bad and as long as it doesn't take up too much of my time, its all good.
I need to cram a whole semester's worth of studies in 2 weeks. Lord, help me. I try okaaaay.
Going for Fame the Musical for FREEEEEEE. That's right, loathe me :) Heh.
Just received 500 bucks to spend on anything. Yup, ANYTHING. Which I already spent some on shopping. C.O.N.T.R.O.L. Sara.
I need to sew my mouth shut. Eating too much.
I'm not so confused anymore. It feels awesome to finally see clearly for a change :) And Lord, you know I have you to thank for.
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On a last note, I am really going to miss my committee. Working with them is bitter sweet :) More sweet than bitter. And I would never have it any other way.
Dancing Through Life
Monday, May 10, 2010
If only we all could right?
In the mean time, I'll fawn over Fiyero :D
First noticed him in Gossip Girl and recently found out he sings as well!!!!!! Can he be more perfect? :D Plus he was in Wicked and Hairspraaaaay. Bliss.
In all honesty, I think Adam Lambert has an awesome voice for Fiyero's role too. But no, I do not like him now. But it doesn't change the fact that he makes a good Fiyero :)
Here I Go Again.
Saturday, May 08, 2010
Just because I feel a little narcissistic now. Here you go A, the DIY fringe.
Ah, life is good for the most part. I've got a month to start cramming for finals. Add in the last few assignments and the part time work and life couldn't get anymore busy. But I like busy compared to idle for the moment. Till next time.
-S
Snip snap
Saturday, April 24, 2010
PMS is such a b*tch. I'm gaining weight from all that extra eating.
I cut my fringe today. Because I felt like it. I've been feeling off these few days. I woke up this morning with the urge for the fringe and since getting a haircut here costs me an arm or a leg, I decided to do it myself. Heh. I think I might have over done it. Whoops. In my defense, its my first time but there is just something extremely calming of taking control of those scissors and snip snapping the hair. Its not horrible. i can still show my face in public if I haven't been scaring enough people already. But it might be a bit short. I'll let you be the judge.
Once again, PMS is a pain in the ass. I'll go for a jog tomorrow. I need it.
I like. Bite me.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
I'm a happy sap. Because I still believe in childhood innocence. *Photos/posters by Kim Anderson. Visit her here.
Yes, you don't have to tell me twice.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I think I should sleep more. Before I start scaring people.
I should start making a poll of some sort to keep track of the number of people who tell me I look dead tired. If this keeps up, I won't need make up for Halloween this year :(
I'm Always Late.
Friday, April 09, 2010
Blessed Easter!
With that said, this Easter has been one of the best so far. I count my little baby blessings everyday. To say the least, Easter Camp this year rocked my socks to the docks.
And You know for what reason :) Rejoice people! The song that really touched my heart. And will continue to do so.
Love Crucufied Arose
Michael Card
Long ago He blessed the earth
Born older than the years
And in the stall a cross He saw
Through the first of many tears
A life of homeless wandering
Cast out in sorrow's way
The Shepherd seeking for the lost
His life the price He paid
[Chorus]
Love crucified arose
The risen One in splendor
Jehovah's sole Defender
Has won the victory
Love crucified arose
And the grave became a place of hope
For the heart that sin
and sorrow broke
Is beating once again
Throughout Your life
you've felt the weight
Of what you'd come to give
To drink for us that crimson cup
So we might really live
At last the time to love and die
The dark appointed day
That one forsaken moment when
Your Father turned His face away
******
I've gone through so much and yet I can still find the strength to carry on. I am super woman. Hear me roar. Bow down and kiss my toes :P
For all my cracks, God still sent you guys down to watch over me. I love you my little angels. <3
I love awesome photography.
Monday, March 29, 2010
I almost got this poster for my room. Me like. But I opted for the Audrey Hepburn one instead which I have always wanted as well. Maybe next time. How true can this get?
*
There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but thats not giving up... Its realizing that you don't need certain people, the bullshit and the drama they bring. - Unknown
How true can this get?
1,2, step.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I fell down.
And picked myself up again.
Laughing this time.
Because I know the bruises will eventually fade.
If lucky. No scars shall remain.
Yes, I literally fell down.
But life is full of it too.
With every fall, a million blessings will come. I'm sure of it.
*
Maybe they are right. I can't keep track of the number of people who have told me I look so tired,dead and that I need more sleep. I try. But I can't seem to change this inbuilt 7am wake up time biological clock. Regardless of my bedtime.
I need to open God's book of life for me. Because I have no idea what comes next and I don't like to make big life changing decisions. I don't want people to dictate my life but I just can't seem to fully figure out what I want. Maybe it is true. I over estimated my confidence level. Just maybe. But determined to change that. Because I can. Oh gosh, I AM fickle.
Guys may complain about the million and one things in life and why they have to dress up for that family dinner they didn't want to go for in the first place but knew they would be in deep shit with the folks if they didn't do it, but I'll concur with them on this one. Girls are complicated creatures. I certainly find myself hard to figure out at times. And definitely not afraid to admit it.
You know, I'm starting to wonder if it really does take another guy to solve a girl's guy problems. Not like the advise was original or anything. It just made the advise seem more possible. That there will always be sunshine after the rain. Even with Melbourne's gloomy weather these days. Or rather its PMS weather. Hot, cold, hot, cold. I like COOL. Sunny with the wind in your hair kind.
Sleep is a fleeting thing.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I can't believe it's only been a month since I got back.
I'm mentally drained. My poor cerebrum can't take much more. Thats what you get when you try to be on top of ALL your subjects. I never had prior training before this. Because I never bothered to be on top of things then cram for finals. Woe is me.
BUT I am determined to enjoy what could possibly be my last year as a student(Oh no I am not ready,repeat NOT ready to go and work, please please don't make me). I'm looking at brighter days to come. Please sunshine.
Haven't spoken to a certain friend in ages and yet God sent the person with words for the soul. I can't thank you enough. I'll take your advice I promise but things are looking much clearer now. Dear friend, thank you. I owe you a drink when I get back :)
High time baby.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
I think its high time I went for that jog. It is waaaay overdue. When I can't fit into those shorts, I'll regret it so badly and I know it.
I need sleeeeeeep. But I'm such a slacker I can't help staying up to finish procrastinated work. I'm trying okaaaaay. And no, the dark circles have always been there. Ever since I was in high school. 2 assignments due every week and being the nerd that I am, I always want to score that high mark. I'm sorry if I'm acting like such a nerd. You obviously don't know me very well if you thought that. And honestly, I couldn't care less. I have enough love in this world as well as from above to be the contented little princess that I am. Uh-huh, bet you never knew I was a princess either. C:
I need Easter break to come. NOW. And my baybeh too. I need advice :( I'm so confused sometimes it scares me. But heck, I've been so busy these days, I'm thankful for the distraction away from personal problems. Oh I need to be a small kid again when boys had cooties and were icky. Life was so much simpler.
The right decision is not always the best one. The best decision is not always the right one. I'm thinking which one sounds better. Give me your two cents.
And you think you are so smart.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I hate it when they say that. Yet, I can't say it to your face.
I'm such a coward. I really am too nice sometimes. I need to let it out I think. After all, the people who mind don't matter and the people who matter don't mind. End of story.
C:
DONE. Lalalaalalaalaaa~
Assignments are making me go cuuuuuckoooooo.
p.s: I'm done editing my layout. NOT assignments :(
Sunday, March 14, 2010
In the process of updating the blog. I'll get there eventually. Patience is a virtue.
Stupid weighing machine. You gave me false hope. I should break you.
Current tune: Acoustic version of Down by Jay Sean.
And when there is nothing left to say
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
So everything that can go wrong, did. It would have been the crappiest weekend ever save the awesome company. But honestly, this is a test from God that I wouldn't want to go through again.
I'm so confused about what to do it scares the shit out of me. I really need that shining light right about now. If you can hear me.
I need to feel better. I really do. Melbourne, work your magic. Then again, I'm too busy to miss home now. I better get my nerd mojo back. Its only week 2 and I know nuts about what is going on.
I want to be a flower among the thorns of doubt and stress. I'll bloom one day. I will. Watch me.
Current tune: Love Me by Yiruma
Here You Go
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Well, here I am once again ready to write about things of the top of my head because I am the type of person that really doesn't plan what to write in advance anyway. Even for academic essays, I'm always spontaneous. Thats why I still thank God and count my lucky stars I managed to score that high band for IELTS.
I've officially moved in to the new place. Yup, after that almost 2 weeks of house hunting from abroad and here in the land down under, stress, anxiety, panic, lack of sleep, packing, etc etc etc, I've found the new place. At a cost of course. But feels good to have my own room once again. And an en-suite bathroom. The rent is over budget but haih. Desperate la. Pictures will be uploaded in due time. I need to clean up and attempt to make my room have an appearance of being worthy of my mum's 5 star rating. Which will probably take me the entire year. If not more. Heh.
Moving has been though. I concede.
But in all honesty, leaving home the 2nd time around was even harder. The first time was because I was excited to leave home. I really was. I didn't feel it then. Being independent is a nice feeling actually. I knew as soon as I got here it would get better. But leaving, thinking of leaving, waiting to get to the airport was hard. Of course it didn't help that I had not yet found a place to live and then my visa gave me a few problems as well because I had to update my passport.
But I'm thinking now that I just felt I did not spend much time with the family and friends this hols because I was busy working. But please don't get me wrong. I thoroughly enjoyed myself at work. Of course waking up at 6 am could be a something to whine about. But I won't. I'm seriously the luckiest intern ever. Kudos to my extremely nice bosses and work colleagues. I couldn't have asked for anything more. I even got a farewell lunch from big boss, small boss, all the bosses AND PRESENT. It's the prettiest pen you have ever seen loooor. I'm pretty sure I'm just a little spoiled, wanting to have the best of both worlds. *wanted to insert a picture here but refused to put one of miley cyrus because I don't want to/ like her voice but can't find other pictures*
This is the first time I ever felt like I missed home before I left it. But I'm here now. New year, new sem. Stop whining, Sara Kang. And as much as I miss home, I'm beginning to feel like Melbourne is once again growing on me. Being independent sure is a full time job. I miss mummy's pampering.
Classes have started and I'm back to running between them. Honestly, I BETTER lose some weight this year. I wanna look good in my graduation pictures OKAY. And keeping busy helps forget about missing home. Friends, I love you <3
Till next time,
Sara
Love, don't hate me
Thursday, February 18, 2010
I'm so sorry to have abandoned you.
Please don't get mad.
I'll update soooooon okay. Just trying to make do with my very limited time back here in Malaysia.
I don't feel like going back yeeeeet. Although I'm growing fat here.
Sigh.
Intern Smintern
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
So, its been 3 weeks. Of interning that is. Haven't had too much hard work and no big datelines to meet or anything :) Which is good but sometimes I wish I had a more challenging job. But I understand why I can't do the more complicated stuff because I don't really have access to the systems they use. But hopefully one day I will be able to see it before I leave the place.
On the many plus sides, I've had good people to work with. All very friendly people and can really joke around making the place so much more fun to be around. Seriously I sit next to some jokers okay. Which is really what is needed.
The first week was kinda lonely as I am in nature a shy person and being a loner at times is what I do best. So yes, bookshops were my best friend before I left and it still is. But gone are those days cause well, I sudah buat kawan. *pats back* Hahahhaha. Sad case.
I also got present yo! See, life is goooooood :)
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You know, it was depressing hearing the news about the passing of a friend albeit not a close one. But I did go to his house for Christmas once those many years ago. And we did exchange a joke or 5 before as well. If the memory sticks, to me, it means you have made an impact on my short life on earth. And really, I have no idea if I could ever bear it if someone really close to me were to leave. Selfish, I know. But honestly, how do you deal with it? I mean, how do you accept the fact that a person with so much potential to has left us this way? The only consolation is that you are in a better place and right now. You'll be sorely missed by those closest to you. RIP Rajan.
You know you love me :)
Friday, December 18, 2009
I've gained weight since I came home! NO NO NO. I refuse to reveal the actual amount. Its too embarassing. Not joking.
I am praying work will make me eat less and I don't get to nap as well. Oh yeah, I've started my internship at RBS Malaysia. ANYONE WORKING AT KLCC????? Call me for lunch yo :P So far work has been little cause I just started by its getting to the end of the year meaning more reports to hand in. Been baby steps ok? I'm learning :)
Updates will be sparse. I've lost the blogging mojo again. :(
Love from sunny Malaysia
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Its been almost a week. Me like :)
I've been eating, sleeping, shopping. Repeat x 100000.
But its all good :)
Updates later aite.
The last post from where I have been for the past 9 months
Saturday, November 28, 2009
So, I don't need to elaborate because well, you KNOW I have waited long enough for this day.
Absence does make the heart grow fonder. I can't wait to squeeze everyone back home. By squeeze I mean hug. But you intelligent people know that :)
Its been a good 9 months. I don't know what I did to deserve this good life. But rest assured, I am very grateful for it. No complains whatsoever.
I have not discovered Melbourne enough yet though!! Oh I will DEFINITELY do it more next year. Was just too fresh this year. EXCUSES I KNOW BUT TRUE WHAAAAT. :D
Resolutions for next year:
1. Beaches! Next year I mesti go. I didn't really go this year. No swimsuit :( But yes next yeeeeear.
2. Looooooose weight for graduation. MUST. Better stop before people say I am complaining about weight again. I'm a girl. A girly girl most of the time. Who likes pretty pretty dresses. And shoes. Bite me.
3. H1 for all subjects! I CAAAAAAAN. Don't think I so dumb dumb can? I know my grades this year have been nothing to boast about but give me a break or 5 la I was adapting to life here. Okay another excuse because I think I have settled in quite well here if I do say so myself :) I don't think I show it enough how much I miss home because people have been saying WHY do I want to go back right after exams. I am pretty sure they think I am very comfortable here. Which I am. In all honesty. Home is still home you know? :) That special feeling of always knowing that no matter how much you screw up, there will always be people who will love you for all your faults.
4. I shall add more when I can think of some. Currently wasting time because I am too lazy to pack things. BUT CANNOOOOT. I'm leaving tonight. Okay bye bye.
Gah I don't like packing. Oh sure I was dying to do it while I was having exams but now when it is actually here....okay I shall stop complaining cause there really is nothing to complain about is there?
Melbourne, you have been good to me. I'll be back next year :) Don't miss me!
God is good, all the time.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
*Grins*
One more baby.
Now I am lazy to pack. Geram-nye my mood swings.
But heck, I'll be home soon.
Don't miss me :)
7 days.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
So I got this from a friend.Yup, its that time of feeling stressed over exams again where words like these speak louder to the soul.
The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.
And another fave f mine,
If He leads you to it, He will lead you through it.
Faith <3
9 days
Friday, November 20, 2009
S.C.A.R.E.D. X 10000000000000000000000000000000000
Chinese can kill. My final paper that is. I want to feel happy after the paper. I really do :(
Pretty please?
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
God, can I go shopping tomorrow? I promise I'll somehow manage to cram 12 weeks worth of lectures and tutorials PLUS past year papers into my brain today.
Then tomorrow I shall declare a 2 hour break for myself to finally look at pretty clothes again. Got saaaaleeeeee. What do you say to that? Yes? No? Maybe?
God: Get off facebook and blogging and then we'll talk
S: RIGHT-O.
I NEED MOTIVATION BABY.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Maybe its about time to change that side bar pic. Just maybe. Or maybe you should concentrate on that studying you are supposed to be doing right about NOW. Instead of blogging.
I'm sorry. Just a little distracted. 9 months away from home does this to you.
I want Christmas. I waaant. I waaant Christmas food.
Currently revisiting childhood memories with Mickey's Christmas Carol. If you haven't watched it, have never even heard of it, you are a sad child indeed and I pity you. Because my life would not be as perfect as it is now if I never had those little building blocks of Christmas movies/cartoons. But don't fret cause its never too late. Call me and I'll watch them with you a million times over. I never get bored. :D
Nightmare before Christmas, the Grinch etc. Ultimate love.
I WANT TO WATCH THE LATEST CHRISTMAS CAROL. I WAAAANT.
Sorry, 9 months of not being pampered has its side effects. Bite me.
Go study doink
Thursday, November 12, 2009
To,
your brain
WHY WHY WHY.
WHY WHY WHY.
Exams aren't even over and you have not started studying for your next two papers. You always feel stressed that you are not stressed yet. Kick in already, damnnit.
SARA KANG. S.T.U.D.Y.
<3,
your (more logical side) cerebrum.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
This never ending circle of procrastination and broken promises to myself will never end will it?
Every beginning of a new sem I tell myself, "This sem, I'll do this, this, this." Nod my head, give myself a pat on the back and move forward.
Every end of the semester I tell myself the same thing. This time, its a promise for next semester.
Oh woe is me. I need the circle to end.
I miss home. 3 weeks. I can do it.
Love me, love me, say that you love me
Friday, October 30, 2009
SAVE ME.
Maybe thinking too much about going home in a month is not such a good thing. Oh but I can't help it!!! The thought of stepping foot on the dodgy LCCT station makes me feel all tingly inside, like a little child waiting for Christmas Day. Oh which reminds me I can't waaait for Christmas toooo. Teehee. Food, drinks, prezzies!
Anywho, as I said, I just feel so uber excited to be going home in a month. I REALLLLY can't wait. FINALLY being able to see the family, friends and to be pampered! Goood food. Bliss much. I know, I know, eventually I would return to my princess self. But heck, I have been independent okay these past (almost) 9 months. I'm proud I have made a life here worth remembering.
I just can't say it enough. I'll be home in a MONTH.
But oh the horror. I have yet to start finals. But not complaining since I really am not ready yo. I neeeeed motivation.
It's been SOOOO HOT these last few days. Spring is in the air :) Dresses and shorts finally! Too bad I am stuck indoors studying.
Okay okay, back to cramming macro. OOF, one less chapter to study. I just realised it today. Happpppy.
Ooooff.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Cling clang.
Feeling uber, mega stressed.
Bing bang.
I just feeling like crawling into bed.
In my defense, I suck at writing decent poems and wasn't planning on writing one. And my brain juice is currently low on fluids.
F.I.N.A.L.S. you love to make me hate you.
ONE MORE MONTH. CAN YOU FEEL IT?
I feel super excited to go home. 9 months is too long. Just way too long. I miss...many things. I'll admit it. I'm itching to be spoiled and taken care of again. Besides, mum said I am still a kid and do not act my 20 (OMG OMG I'LL BE 21 SOON!) years of age. I'll concede this time. But I would say I did quite a good job taking care of myself for the past 9 months. Eat that.
Oh another update. I found out I don't quite like tim tams. The horror. Oh maybe the dark ones are okay. I think me and tim tams don't go well together. I fell sick after eating tim tam cheesecakes twice. And I didn't feel too good after eating some the other day. Too darn sweeeeet. Audrey says I am special cause I don't like milk chocs. Me love dark chocs :) Its her affectionate way of telling me I am weird :P
Good Morning World!
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Just because I felt like it.
I need more sleep.
Its Saturday.
I can't sleep.
Darn.
:Thanks for volunteering
Sunday, October 11, 2009
And you wonder why I like Melbourne.
Its the simple, unexpected things.
A nice smile.
A nod.
A simple thank you for volunteering.
When I didn't do it all for them.
But yeah. Its nice being appreciated :D Honestly, I had fun.
Time, where did you go?
Friday, October 02, 2009
So much for catching up. Now my brain is still in week 3 of uni.
SARA KANG F.O.C.U.S.
Its THAT hard. I've been on the same set of lecture notes since forever. The pages turn at a speed of 1 page/hour.
The only productive thing I did was shopping and having too much fun. Will I regret it later?Hopefully not.
This will probably be one of the longer posts since I have the mood to blog now. And by long I mean with pictures :) And I promised pictures. I doubt many people still come here but heck, I don't blame them.
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Went to the Tulip Festival with the babes on Tuesday :) We don't get awesome weather in Melbourne everyday. Tuesday was the only sunny day in the entire week. Although the ground was muddy at parts (until my black pumps were turning brown to match my tights), we had fun frolicking in the flowers and with each other :D
Check my facebook for my pictures aite?
Fooling around after months of not seeing each other. Thats what you get when you don't go to the same uni.
Me likey :)
Lizzie Liz Liz.
Pretty flowers make me happy :)
Winds of change.
It was a fun day. We ate so much its a wonder I still fit my clothes. Finished the day with an impromptu movie date in Melbourne Central. Fame was not bad if you are into dancing and performing arts. I reaaaally didn't study during this holidays. Maybe its a good thing my papers are stretched out eh?
I'm not feeling homesick. But I miss being pampered. As much as I love being independent. Two different and wonderful feelings. 2 more months and I'll be back in sunny Malaysia. Then hopping straight into the air conditioned car :) Can't waaaaaait!
Till next time my darls :)
She loves me. Seriously, she does.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
She's old. Enough said. Can get married already. I hear church bells :) I want to be brides maid pleassee :)
Hahaha. I'm JOKING. I think she will kill me soon.
I know she looks hot la guys. Eat your hearts out okay. She's MINE. And I don't like to share. Unless you buy me ice cream and lots of pretty dresses for spring. Then we can talk.
Okla. As usual, I miss the point in most of my posts.
HAPPYYYYYY 20TH BIRTHDAY MY HENG HENG.
You know I miss you :) More than you know :) 2 more months!
I know you miss me toooooo :) Terpaksa make myself feel better just in case she doesn't :(
Teeheeee.
Okaaay. Back to productive work. Whatever that means.
And drumroll please.
Bugger.
My stomach has become a black hole because everything I eat somehow digests in 20 seconds and I can eventually stuff something into my mouth again.
I'm imagining the horror when I go home and find out everything and anything I eat won't satisfy my hunger.
Exam timetable is out. How nice. I start on the first day and end on the last day of the examination period. Feeling my joy? /sobs. Thats THREE whole weeks. I don't know if I should be sad or glad. I really don't know.
Holidays are eeeeveeeel because I spend way too much money going out, shopping and eating. But God's been good and giving me more than I deserve. I think I shall stop whining about weight issues right now. (I lie all the time).
On an entirely different note, when did things get so complicated?
Did I mention my black hole? That place where things never stay permanent hence causing me to eat like, well, a pig? (I knew it. Can never stop whining. People feel like killing me :))
Okay okay. Better start doing a fraction of what I planned to do during this hols before I go out again. Shopping. Why oh why do I never keep my resolutions? WHY WHY WHY. I need a smack.
XOXO,
Sara
Spring!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
The days are hotter.
My first Spring :) Can't wait for my plans during the holidays to unfold. Pictures hopefully soon.
Started a job. So far its been okay although I did make some mistakes here and there. Thank goodness I got nice supervisors man. God loves me :) Did I mention I get to eat cookies for free on the job? And free coffee? Hahahaha. Not like I had time to eat so much but still :)
Assignments are done for now. I see more looming. Shall stress later. Already getting pimples because of this hectic week.
Aiya really nothing to update. Shall I paste my assignment here?
Kiidding!
Toodles! Hopefully an update with pictures next :)
