Its hard writing a post with someone breathing down your neck.Ughhhh.
I wanna go to a place where Christmas decorations adorn the streets and the smell of Christmas fills the air. I guess I feel this way mainly because I have not a SINGLE christmas decor this year. Moving is soooo tiresome.Hehe. But I'm not complaining.
Anyhow just to wish all of you out there a
Blessed Christmas!!
'Tis the season to be jolly.........'
You know, its strange really.
To know that one minute you're just starting out in secondary school and the next you're taking your first step into college. Its not that I WANT to be in secondary school right now. Seriously, to have the thought that I no longer have to fit myself into a school uniform for a good 250++ mornings in a year is quite nice. Scratch that. Its really nice. Heh. That uniform never suited me anyway.
I can still remember vividly my first day in form1. Oh how I couldn't wait to start secondary school. That feeling of starting something new was euphoria back then. That was then I guess. Now ultimate euphoria means new shoes, clothes and bags! Right now, I just can't believe that its all over. The past five years of my life that is.
Till now, I still have trouble digesting the fact that I've finished the chapter. It honestly feels like it was just yesterday that I opened this chapter in the book of my life and scanned the first few lines of the page. Now I've finished all 352641756087 pages. Now the book's closed and ready to be shelved in the part labeled Memories.
Sometime in the future I may just decide to take it down, blow off that layer of dust, remove the cobwebs and flip through it once again. By then I may just have grown more mature (hopefully) and laugh at all the things I did back then. Like stalking guys. But we'll discuss that in a different post. Or not.
Right now I'm just a fille tring to find my way in this big, big world.
This new chapter of my life has just begun and I have yet to engross myself in it. Oh well. Might as well indulge in it since I have nothing else to do :D
Come next Thursday, at approximately 4.30 p.m. , my cerebrum is going on a longgggggg holiday :) :)
Saw this little bird of night perched on a tree in my neighbour's garden. A rare sight indeed. It was just sitting there, staring into oblivion. I have no idea what it was staring at. It sat there long enough for me to snap a few pictures. Didn't dare to get any closer just in case it decided to attack me. Hehe. Although it did look like an owlet to me. I didn't want to take any chances though. I have no idea what type of owl this is. I'm no expert in owls :D
I want no regrets,
When I look back on my life,
At all the things I've done,
I don't want to see a girl looking all forlorn saying,
" What have I become? ".
I want no regrets,
When I look at my friends of long,
At all the things they have done and seen,
And turn to myself and think,
That could have been me.
I want no regrets,
When I look back on the things of the past,
At my actions and words I never meant but said,
I wish to learn now and not repeat,
From all the immature mistakes that I've made.
I want no regrets,
Even when I don't always make,
The right choices in life,
God knows I've done my best,
So I can look back and say " It's alright".
I want no regrets,
Even when the road I take,
May make life seem unbearable at times,
I know the right choices ain't always easy,
So faith in God and stubborn pride
will carry me through such hard times.
I want no regrets,
When my decisions in life,
Cause opportunities to pass me by,
When one door closes, another opens,
So I just won't sit around and cry.
So right now as I walk thorough this life,
I'll strive to do my best,
In the years to come I'll look back and say,
" I had no regrets ".
The level of Malaysian pirated DVDs never ceases to amaze me. Yes, pirated DVDs are increasing tremendously. Look around at any coffee shop and you're bound to find at least 1 DVD seller.
What really amazes me, and gets my funny bone going on for hours, is their subtitles be it in Malay or English. Being a banana I can only read these two. No wise cracks please. On to the subject...
I remember watching a pirated version of Chicken Little less than a year ago I think. Darn, I'm getting old. Can't even remember when I watched it. Dear God, please don't let me turn senile to early..
As I was saying, I turned on the English subtitles as well. (Don't ask why. I've always had this habit of reading subtitles eventhough I can understand what the movie is about. A habit thats hard to break. Must have been too much Chinese soaps when I was younger.)
Anyway, there was a scene in the movie when chicken little said, "Where's my acorn?".And the subtitles read...."Where's my air-con?"...Just imagine a huge giant air-con falling on him!
Another scene, I'm not too sure what was happening already, the whole group of chicken little's friends were running from something. Then I think the pig shouted, " Fish, run for it!"....The subtitles read...." B**** run for it!"...Oh gosh. They called that cute little fishy a b****!...I couldn't stop laughing for a long time.
In another movie which I didn't watch but my mum related to me. Now this is worse because I heard that this movie was on TV and not some pirated DVD. In the movie, a person stands up and says, " I want to make a toast."...My mum was reading the Malay subtitles and they read.."Saya nak bakar roti"...Oh my gosh. How low can you get? Not even to realize the difference between this toast and toast bread??.. Here the character in the movie was trying to make a toast ond we in turn wanted to make toast bread. The TV producers should get some real translators.
Seriously am getting old. Can't remember where I saw this next hilarious part.It was a pirated DVD btw. In the movie, the character said, " Holy shit!!"...Everyone knows he/she was in some kind of trouble or saw something incredible to exclaime like that right? Our subtitles?...You're gonna love this one. They read "Tahi suci!"..Whahahahaha. Yes they really did. Directly translated it would mean that but c'mon already. I still can laugh about it till now. *bursts out laughing*
Recently I watched the The Devil Wears Prada on, you guessed it, another pirated DVD. Anyway the movie wasn't too bad but you'll have to love clothes to really enjoy it. A bit confusing here and there but I read the book before so it wasn't so bad. The English subtitles were horrendous. And to think I was counting on the subtitles to help me understand the movie a little better. Sheesshh. Anyway there was this part in the movie when a girl said, " When the boss is in a good mood, she's very good. But when she's in a bad mood, she's vicious." The subtitles came out before she spoke the words and guess what they said?..." When she's in a bad mood,she's fish shit."....Vicious = fish shit. I was bawling with laughter. Honestly. I even opened my ears wide enough to hear if the girl would actually call her boss fish shit.Turned out to be vicious instaed. * shakes head*
Note to self : Never rely on subtitles on pirated DVDs to understand the movie. Most of them anyway.
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Germae was asking me the other day about what I wanted to be later in life. How easy it was 10 years ago to just say "Doctor".
Anyway I said I wasn't sure as usual. Heck, I'm not even sure what course I'll be taking in college. So anyway I asked her what she thinks I should do.
Guess what my lovely baybeh said?...She said, and I quote, " I feel you could be a Chief Executive Officer"...So sweet of her la. Imagine me a CEO. Hah. *mind floats away to dreamland*.Teehee.
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Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya to all my friends out there!!!!!
Not at the best of moods at this very moment.
Know what I really can't stand?
People trying to read an article when I'M trying to read it. I don't mind, really, if we're sitting side by side reading the article or whatever it is. This (rant) mainly concerns people who like to poke their head over my shoulder and start reading whatever I'm reading. Look, kindly just ask for it after I have finished reading it ok? I would really appreciate that. Don't just stick your head at my shoulder and start reading it like nobodys business. Do I look like I like to have someone breathing down my neck? I don't blame you if you barely know me. In fact, I'll just stop reading and just pass it to you if you are someone I've just met.
But I guess some people are too dense to get the message after I've done this repeatedly. Ugh.
On a totally unrelated but similar matter.
When someone says your little antic is getting irritating, get the message and stop doing it for goodness sake. Some people have only so much self control. Do we need to stick a note on our heads to remind you all the time? I mean, sure, it was entertaining for a while. Then it just starts to get annoying and gradually becomes downright irritating. When no one else is laughing, the jokes over. Period. Even if you find it funny for some reason or another.
Say it with meeeeee...... TRIALS ARE OVER!!! O-V-E-R!!!
Gosh, I thought I would never see the day. Somehow I pictured a more, er, dramatic ending. Guess not. I was just so tired.
The big day ain't here yet though.
Study, study, study.Thats what I'll be doing for the next 2 months so please don't label me a nerd. SPM is just important to me ok.
I'll update later when I have more interesting things to yack about.
XOXO,
Sara
Being sleep deprived is slowly becoming my daily routine. I know its self-inflicted and all. I guess I never learn. Somebody shake some sense into me. Beat me if you need to.
Oh how I managed to survive this past week is beyond me. Another week to go. Not exactly hyped about it but I don't think anything can be worse than this past week. I don't suppose anything can get worse. At least I hope not.
*Looks to the sky*(or rather the celing)
This post may turn a little emo at the end so please don't mind me.
As you probably guessed, I was confirmed today.
To say that the day went perfectly would be a total lie. It started out anything but perfect in fact.
Woke up at apporximately 5.15 a.m. I wish I could just smash my clock at times. I set my alarm at 6 a.m. and it wakes me up at 5 a.m. When I set it earlier, it doesn't even ring!...Stupid clock.. I'm refraining from chucking it just because its purple...I'm a sucker for all things purple. So yours truly here was as usual half blind and could not see that it was only 5 a.m. , woke up, bathed, and got dressed. When I was done dressing, I realised it was only 5.45 a.m. Stupid, stupid clock.
Then........
To my utmost horror, I saw yellow spots all over my white blouse!...Oh gosh I was gonna faint right there and then.... Mummy!!!
She was sleeping la.... So I had to slowly torture myself and figure out what to do. To cry or not to cry?..Thank god I didn't have to torture myself too long...Mummy woke up and took care of things. She did her best but the yellow spots still remained although faintly. They weren't even tiny ones....To me it looked huge! Of all days... At least no one noticed la.....
Went to church early. Had to assemble in the hall. Instructions were given and then walked into churh with my Godmum. She gave me a beautiful present! Mummy gave me one too! *beams widely*
Sat through the normal mass. Then the time came for the annointing with oil. He got oil into my hair!!!!...At least it wasn't that much la...But I thought it was only to be on my forehead le....It was a normal mass except for the presence of the Archbishop. Then it was time for photos!!.. And you know I never miss out on camwhoring.... : D
The family..
Dad. Sara. Mum.
Sara. Godmum.
Sara. Sonia.
Sara. Shaun.
Po-po. Sara.
The crazy but lovable friends....
Sara. Marianne. Dada. Fran. Sookie. Angeline.
Calvin. Sara. Germae.
Sara. Adam.
Sara. Sanjan. Marianne. Matthew. Colin.
Sara. Adeline.
Sara. Marianne. Normman. Colin.
Adam. Sara. Marianne. Colin.
Sookie. Sara.
Sara. Cass.
The Archbishop..
Germae. Archbishop Murphy Pakiam. Sara.
As much as I have been looking forward to Confirmation, there has always been this nagging little feeling inside me. The feeling of losing touch with all my friends in Sunday School. In a way, Confirmation marks the end of my Sunday School years. As a student at least. There's always a chance that I may go back and help out.
Its depressing really. I will definately lose touch with some of them. Sure we may meet each other in church but most of the friends I am close with go for the earlier masses. There's a 90% chance none of my sunday school friends will read this so I guess I can be as sappy as I want to be. I am soooooo gonna miss all of them. After ten or so years of being sunday schoolmates, its gonna be a little difficult to grasp that I won't be seeing them on every sunday from now on.
No more waiting for each other outside the classroom or in the corridors.
No more toilet breaks for the sole reason for doing our hair.
No more gossiping about the hot guys in out church. (I know, I know its bad. But we can't help it ;P )
No more listening to wild stories from our respective schools. Really wild stories. Its great to know about what happens in other schools every now and then.
No more calling each other to find out if there is sunday school. Half an hour before sunday school starts :D
No more mindless conversations.
No more bullying the teachers.
No more bullying our seniors who were helping out. We still love you guys.
No more havocs in class. Yeah, I'll even miss the havoc.
No more camwhoring with the girls.
Although we have been in the same class for about ten years, its sad that I never really got to know some of my classmates at all. Especially the quite ones. They just keep to themselves la. At least the guys were more open this year. Got to know some of them better.
When will I ever get to see this scene again?
Got another er.... statement, per say, that I look like a Japanese girl. Are my eyes that small?
Maybe I should just jet off to Japan and get the opinions of some real Jap people. It can't hurt right? Besides, I've always wanted to see cherry blossoms ; )
I want to see snow someday. Real snow. Not the kind that you see on TV or even man made snow.
I don't know where the thought came from. I thnk it came from one of those daydrems that I'm beginning to have ever so often nowadays.
Maybe I've watching one too many Christmas movies. The kind of winter wonderland thing has kind of rubbed off on me. Somehow seeing people all covered up in thick coats just to stay warm, snowflakes getting caught in their hair, throwing snowballs and making snow angels has made me wanna experience what its like to see, taste and feel actual snow.
Highly unlikely for me to actually experience snow in this insanely hot weather la. Goosshhhh its burning hot nowadays. I feel as if I'm constantly living in an oven. Thank God for air conditioners.
I have seen man made snow before though. Twice in fact. Once when I went to Korea and the second time in China.
It was nice to see the whole place covered in white but I don't think anything beats seeing snow fall from the sky instaed of coming from some man made machine.Ok, I wouldn't actually know yet as I've never actually seen snow fall from the sky but I'm betting its tons better.
I almost got too see real snow. Almost.
I was in China right? When I was there, the tour guide did say that it might snow sometime soon. So there I was praying it would snow. Even a little. And guess what? It snowed.Yup, it did. Two days after I got home. Can you believe my luck?
I read about it in the newspaper. If I had stayed a little longer....Ugh. Oh well. Someday I'll get to see snow.
Anyone with extra cash to spare to buy me an air ticket to Europe? *bats eyelashes*
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Was talking to my cousin a few hours ago. We got into the topic of food. And she starts complaining about her nonexistent belly. Please. That girl has no tummy whatsoever. Compared with mine....
She totally cracks me up sometimes. Anyway, it went like this :
Leen : You know what? I feel as we grow older our will power to diet has disappeared la.
Sara : I totally get it.
L : So now have to double the workout time la ( makes a face)
S : You don't say. ( makes a face back)
L : If not ah, the belly just gets bigger.
S : (stares at her nonexistent belly) Puhleez la.
L : Seriously la.
S : Nevermind la. Can do belly dancing what...
L : No need la. The belly already dances by itself.
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When I was younger, I always dreamed of getting into an Ivy League college. Possibly Brown, Harvard or Yale.
Still am in fact. I like the sound of it. I dunno why.
Ivy. IIIIIvy. Ivvyyyy. : D
Sounds extremely prestigious. It is in fact.
The catch?..You have to be super smart to get in. You guys probably now that already. I know I'm no where near it yet but I can still dream can't I?
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My Confirmation is coming. And I still haven't chosen a name. Eventhough I've been thinking about it since forever.
I haven't found a name a really like yet but I've found some that I really don't. Honestly I don't. No disrespect to the saint of course.
Big no-no's :
Abigail
Barhadbesciabas ( I can't even pronounce it)
Bobo
Blitmund
Blitharus
Bodagisil
Caecilius
Cerneuf
Corbmac
And many, many more...
Sara Abigial Kang? Sara Bobo Kang?... Hhahahaha. Its a laugh a minute.
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I knew it wouldn't last forever. My World Cup fever. I'm still contemplating if I should stay up to watch the final between Italy and France. My fever kinda subsided after Brazil got kicked out. Ish. And its not like I'm a big fan of France or Italy. Hmmm...
My feet hurt. They really, really do.
Note to self : Wear sport shoes the next time I plan to do extreme walking.
Canteen Day was a success. Didn't make as much money as we hoped but it was fun nonetheless : D
Holland got kicked out. They should have won. Noooooooooo.....
You know it's seriously weird when you're in the midst of a BM class and suddenly your mind starts wandering to kickboxing. Well, technically its not weird when your mind starts wandering..... but to kickboxing? Hmmm.... Weirder still when your friend suddenly turns to you and blurts out that she wants to try kickboxing. Maybe it was due to the essay we were dicussing. It was an insanely boring essay on martial arts and the sort.
Me: Cikgu, boring la karangan ini.
Mr. Z: Eh, tak ada alasan. Nak dapat 'A' untuk SPM?
Me: (barely above a whisper) "Great".
So its actually been there for a while. The urge to try out kickboxing I mean. I never told many people for fear of them getting freaked out or something but I've been wanting to try out kickboxing for a while now. Somehow I feel that there might be something calming about venting your anger at a punching bag. Throw in a a few kicks. Don't label me as weird though. You never know till you try right?
We adolescents have many frustrations after all. Well at least I do. Been feeling more agitated than usual lately. And I can't blame it on PMS because its past that. It really sucks when you can't even figure out why you're angry or upset. Ah, 'tis the life of a confused teen.
I have no idea where the urge to try kickboxing came from so please don't ask. Could it be from watching too much telly? Or maybe from a few stray hormones?......Somehow I feel that the latter is more convincing and therefore to blame.
Anyone wanna try out with me? We'll find a place swarming with hot guys to ogle k? They might inspire us ;) I'm assuming no guys are reading this.
Ok, so maybe now is not the best of times to start out something new. SPM is coming after all. And I'm lazing around more than usual, constantly finding things to do and blogging when I don't exactly need to just to avoid studying. Heh.
I'm beginning to feel the pressure though. Doesn't help when people are counting down the days for you. Do I look like I need more stress? *rolls eyes*
My TV's backkkkk..Well, technically it is. Its actually our spare TV moved to the living hall. But hey, no complains : )
Hari Keusahawanan is coming up. Can't say I'm very excited though. Guess its because I've been through it before. But the hype will catch up sooner or later. I hope it'll be a big success though for my sake and for the sake of my dear classmates.
Been thinking more than usual lately. Sort of. I'm a mess. Honestly.
I'm PMS-ing. Not exactly a great time to get on my nerves.
Just when I thought nothing worse could get on my nerves, guess what?
My one relief breaks down. Yes its my TV. I just realised I can't live without it. I'm not the only one though. My whole family is pining for it like as if the whole world has come to an end. Its embarrassing really. To think we can't live without the TV for even a day. We've resorted to the spare TV which unfortunately has NO, I repeat NO ASTRO. We're sad. After watching an episode of some made in Malaysia FBI show, probably trying to imitate those Crime Scene shows we finally gave up as there is nothing else on normal TV.
My TV chose a very good time to break down. Not. Its World Cup time la....means there won't be any football to watch ( not like I'm missing any important matches yet. But still..). Call me a hypocrite but I kinda got into the spirit of it. The football fever is soooo contagious. Although I still wouldn't stay up to watch those 12 or 3 am matches la...I can't watch my van Persie, Kaka or Torres la... *sobs*
I have to worship lead tomorrow. Without any practice beforehand. Oh joy. :(
So its finally here. The time every football fan has dreamed of. The time when every hardcore football fan will be glued to the TV. Its World Cup time. Oh joy.
Sorry for the lack of enthusiasm. I'm not a big football fan like some of my peers as you can probably tell. But considering that I do know at least 10 % of whats going on, I feel as if I deserve a pat on the back. *pat pat* : )
Honestly, the times when I actually do watch a match would be for the footballers or because there is nothing better to watch on TV. Or if my brother or dad is hogging the TV. Which is very, very rare. I'll be bombarding my brother with questions about the game and I think he probably gets fed up with me. Oopssss... ; D
Be ready for a whole month of football mania people. Not like it didn't start a few months ago. Sometimes I don't understand what the hype is all about. Some of them act like they would die if they didn't watch a live match. Whats the big deal if you caught the repeat? I hope my peers who are reading this won't kill me for saying that. For the record, I fully support your dedication to the TV set for the next month. Heck, it only happens once in 4 years after all.
I'm supporting Holland this year.Robin van Persie!! * muax muax* Brazil is a hot fav among Malaysians. I'm supporting Brazil for Kaka. He's hottttt. Thats the only reason. Hehe. England?...I dunno. Not a big fan. I also have a feeling an underdog will surprise us this year. : )
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It's back to school in 2 days. Can you believe it? 2 days!!!! Whare did my 2 weeks go????
I want my holidays : (
I feel like I'm still living in la-la land with no cares in the world.
Reality bites. And it bites hardddddddd.........
Watched The Da Vinci Code with the girls today. I know I'm like major late but hey, at least I managed to catch it. Wasn't as good as I'd pictured it to be. Started yawning about half way through the show. Kept testing my memory power to remember who killed who before it actually happened on screen. Childish I know.
Keeping my fingers crossed for Pirates of the Caribbean next. Trying not to get my hopes to high so I won't be dissappointed with the outcome.
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Ever wondered how things somehow become so much more interesting when you have to study? (In my case its having to finish this completely pointless PJ project that I feel serves no purpose whatsoever. And studying of course)
Reading chick-lits are way more fun.
The need to sleep more is there.
Somehow the TV has more interesting shows.
The mall is looking so much more appealing. (Which makes the fact that I'm going to 1 Utama tomorrow so much more fun)
I'll be leaving for Penang tomorrow. Again. Don't ask.
Heck a week, well almost, has gone by and I still haven't gone out for a single movie. You'd think a girl with two whole weeks of hols would have tons of time to go out. I'm a sad, sad person.
Instead of going out for movies, I've been going for tuition. Yup everyday for the past 5 days. Ugh, I pity myself. Then again, I did resolve to start studying earlier. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise. A huge disguise.
Don't get the wrong idea though. I've not been studying 24/7. I do have more time to laze around. Sleep more. Eat more. Catch up on my TV time etc. I just wanna go out and watch a movie. Or two ; )
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A lil overdue, but no matter...
Went for this A-levels course on Monday with Kerry. Wasn't exactly what I pictured it to be though. I expected a long lecture on the course which undeniably I'll be half asleep half way through. Heh :)
Instaed we were split into groups of 3 each, thank goodness I got Kerry. Each group had a mentor and that mentor was supposed to bring each group to his/her respective classroom. We sat in the same class for the next 4 hours or so. I guess the point was to show us how lectures were conducted and such. Our classes, or rather their classes before lunch break were Thinking Skills, Physics, Maths and Chemistry. We understood about 15% of what was going on. The rest was absolute greek to us.
Then came our lunch break. Lunch was provided but our mentor said that the food in the canteen sucked.He wanted to take us out but we declined cause we were going to meet up with Charlene for lunch. He was nice to ask us out though.
Came back an hour later and were told that Economics, our next subject was cancelled because the lecturer was absent. Oh well. All wasn't lost though as we spent the next hour watching this hilarious comedy the students undoubtedly downloaded for times like these.
We were late for our next "class" which was in the library cause we sorta lost track of time. Figures. After that we were told to fill in some questionaries as usual. So thats about it really. Found out that it costs a bom for tuition fees alone. Sheessshhh. All they care is about these days is making money.
Exams are oveeeeerrrrrr!! *beems*
My my, I never thought I'd be so happy to see the day exams finish. Somehow this exam period seemed to go on and on forever. I can still remember the day before exams started and praying to survive. Tadaaaa! I'm still here..
I'm beat.
I need my nappy time.
I need some me time.
Sorry for the extremely boring post. It seems that all I can write about is exams. But then again, nothing much has been going on except for exams. So yeah, bear with me. I'll put up more, er, interesting posts asap.
PS : I'm praying for Katherine to win tomorrow. Mainly because I just don't like Taylor. I just don't. Although he did sing that last song pretty well. I'll give him props for that. Oh well.
Nites. *muax*
I can't believe exams are almost over. It just seems to go on and on and on. By His grace I am surviving. By next Wednesday I'll be getting some actual rest.
I need a break from this. I don't wanna come home and bury myself in my books anymore. Feeling stressed and deprived of sleep is just not for me. Yup yup I'm counting the days till I can snooze all I want.
Hey people. Just a little notice here. I will be MIB (Missing In Blogging) for a while. Due to various reasons of course.
The sudden passing of a very close relative has left me pondering on many of life's questions. I just hope in time I'll come to accept them.
My mid-terms are in 2 weeks. I haven't exactly started studying. You'd think a girl would learn her lesson. Apparently not in my case. So yeah, I don't have much time to think of what to blog at the moment. I'll probably continue after my mid-terms. That oh-so-important mid-terms. *shudders*
Currently listening to - "God Will Make A Way" by Don Moen.
Till then, take care and God Bless everyone.
XOXO,
Sara
When life throws you a hurdle, you either stop before you reach it or you jump over it.
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You know, in a few months I'll probably have to make one of the hardest decisions in my life.
(Drum roll please......)
The decision of what I plan to study in the very, very, very near future. Yup, thats my dilemma at the moment. Oh sure, many of you have probably made up your minds about what you want to study ( speaking to those who are at my age), but there are always the exceptional few, like me, who frankly aren't ready to make such a life altering decisions.
When you're an average student, neither excelling nor failing in any subjects, you tend to feel the strain. Believe me, its there. I mean, what can I possibly do? I don't excel in anything. Some people excel in certain subjects whereas I, well, I just.......don't.
So here's the thing. I do try. Really, I do. I want to find something I'm really good at but disappointments just turn up whichever way I turn. Life was so much easier way back in the good ol' days when you just wrote down what was your ambition. Heck, I can still remember the countless number of times I had to fill in forms when I was younger. You know, forms regarding information about yourself and so on. So, many a times I'll stumble across word "AMBITION". Needless to say, I'll just write down these three: doctor, teacher and lawyer.
Oh how naive I was back then. My friends wanted to be doctors, so I wanted to be one as well. Oh btw, I don't think they were thinking much back then either. Hehe.
So everyone wanted to be a doctor. Why not, right? You make loads of money, save lives and live happily ever after. The end. Hehe. Just joking. But back then, did I know that in order to be a doctor I had to study medicine for at least 7 years? No. Did I know that it would cost a huge bomb in my parents' wallet? No. Did I know this? Did I know that? NO. So there you have it, naive little children who didn't know any better just writing down the job they think will make them rich. If life was so easy. But it isn't.
So now here I am, trying to get through my unending pile of homework, somehow find the time to revise, get the amount of sleep I require or else I'm incapable of functioning and yadda yadda. Then comes the bomb that I have to dicide what it is that I plan to take up. I can't just write it down on paper this time and discard it like what I have done countless of times in the past.
Then there's the thing of choosing what kind of doctor, lawyer, engineer, etc. that you want to become.
For doctors:
Anaesthetics
General practice
Medicine
Obstetrics and Gynaecology
Ophthalmology
Paediatrics
Pathology
Psychiatry
Radiology
Surgery (Including Dental Surgery)
For lawyers:
Attorney
Adoption Lawyer
Appeals Attorney
Auto Accident Lawyer
Aviation Attorney
Bankruptcy Lawyer
Collections Attorney
Constrution Lawyer
Criminal Defense Attorney
Criminal Lawyer
Divorce Attorney
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There isn't just ' doctor ' or ' lawyer ' or ' engineer ' anymore. Great. Just great.
The thing is, how will I know if I'm interested in that particular field if I haven't even studied it?
Somebody please give me an answer.
I want to stop cogitating on this matter. But I'll have to face it sooner or later. I prefer sooner.
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" The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain" - Dolly Parton
I want my rainbow... :)
Ok. It's been awhile since I've written anything here. Thanks to my oh so boring life, I just have nothing to blog about.
Thank God I had a fun weekend. I wanted to write this post yesterday but I was so tired that my eyelids were touching the floor already thanks to the lack of sleep over the fun but tiring weekend. No complains though.
I went for my confirmation camp last weekend. Not being a very outgoing person, I have never actually been to one of these overnight camps with friends. Yeah, I am soooooo sad. Don't pity me though. It was fun while it lasted. Met the nicest, funkiest, friendliest people you can ever imagine. Seriously, those people sure can crack you up.
We had many speakers among the other activities the teachers planned. Basically the whole idea of this camp was to deepen our faith in God. Many of the speakers also gave talks on relationships e.g. relationship with parents, friends, God and so on and so forth. There was this guy who talked about how his dad passed away and who he was estranged from his mother. That really got to a few people and we broke down crying. Yes, I did too. It was sooooo sad. *sobs*
Our confirmation group was the first group to create history in that convent. We broke 3 plastic chairs, a flower pot and a light bulb. I have no idea how the guys managed to do break the light bulb...
I wish I had some pictures to post but being Miss Forgetful, I forgot to bring my camera. After reminding myself a gazillion times to bring it. I'm getting old.... Sorry for the boring post but my brain feels so tired and addled at the moment. I'll update soon!
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Managed to get this pic from William. Thanks Will!
This post is a little over due. But no matter.....
Its that time of the year again. The time when millions of people begin to plan their day to day schedules according to the viewing times of the latest American Idol programme.
I am sooooo included. Its just great fun to watch young undiscovered talents showing the world, actually America, what they've got and why THEY should be the next American Idol. Honestly, millions of people audition for this show. That's like 10 times more than the number of people who audition for Malaysian Idol. Maybe even more...
Anyway back to the topic. So we have millions of people. Throw in a ton of good talent, lots of confidence and the occasional weirdos and you get a reality show that will keep you rooted to your seats.
I like watching the audition rounds. You get to see people go in to the judging area with such high confidence that they will be the next american idol. Then coming out looking like their pet cat just died. Criticism from the judges comes in abundance I guess. Especially from Simon.
So here'e the thing. You either have it or you don't. I guess it has got to be their strong sense of self confidence then. I can't think of a better reason for most of them to go on national television and sing their lungs out. And suck real bad at it. I mean come on already. Like that guy who attempted to sing that Alladin theme song. Or that Clay Aiken look alike. Or the girl who sounded like a chipmunk. Or the girl who had those ridiculous viking-looking ponytails (She said Simon was gonna love her. How very, very, very wrong she was). Then there was that girl who dressed in that unbelievably tight lycra-ish suit. You know, the silver one. She looked..... Gosh, I can't even put it in words. At least those are the people thats make you laugh every once in a while. Hehe :)
Anyway, that was quite a while back. America has already chosen its final 12.
I'm too lazy to type out each of their names so go here for more details.
My personal favourites have got to be Chris, Ace, Katharine and Lisa. Chris and Katharine can definately sing. I like Ace but I don't think he's the best singer in the competition. He'll be going soon.... *sobs*.Lisa as well. She used to be better. But then again, its America's choice. Another 10 weeks or so and we'll get our new American Idol. Can't wait!
So here are the pics like I promised..
(Pictures from my school compound)
I have no idea how the whiteboard from one of the classes could fall down..
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So yeah I lied. It wasn't such a bad day after all. We pretty much cam-hored for a good 3/4 of the day.... What can I say?..We just loveeee the cam..
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It rained really hard yesterday. Understatement of the year that was. Yours truly was snoozing away so I can't provide much info. Honestly, my mum says that the even if the world comes to an end I would still be sleeping..Hehe. So anyway, I woke up right after the thunderstorm was over and had to deal with the millions of stories I heard.
Apparently trees were swaying from left to right, the wind was so strong that you could hear it, things were flying everywhere e.g. dustbin covers , sticks, and in one special case, an astro aerial...Must have been really strong. My cousin's house had no electricity for a good 6 hours at least, I think because the trees fell on the cables. Went for tuition that night and had a REALLY good look at the destruction the thunderstorm (some claim it was a mini tornado) caused. Everywhere you look trees were uprooted and the trail of destruction was unbelievable. Apparently the whole of Subang Jaya and parts of USJ was struck by this force of mother nature. Whoa she must be angry.
On the way to tuition, you could see that the wind was so strong that many a trees were blown to the side of the road. Some trees looked so funny because the tops of the trees were bending to one side. Not really a laughing matter but then... Passed this kindergarten where this huge tree right beside the kindie totally uprooted and fell into the kindergarten's compound. Even their gate was blocked.
My school wasn't spared though. Much of the zink roofs flew off and apparently damaged a few teachers' cars. The afternoon session students were let out early as a result. My class looked like a tornado really struck it. Papers were practically ripped from the boards and some chairs were blown out the back door. So we, as the students who love the school so much had to clean up the school compound. And school was cancelled for the afternoon session students. Something doesn't sound right here...
15 minutes later.....
I tried to upload some of the pictures I took but yet again my blogger ain't working. This sucks. I'll upload later k?
Off to penang now..
Sometimes thinking about the cutest pumps in the world(which you own) is soooo much better than thinking about the mountain of homework that you left on the table.
So here's the thing. Been shopping more than usual lately. My mum's complaining I have to many shoes. I won't complain. I rarely buy, honestly, I've been wearing the same pair of flops for the longest of times. So for my birthday this year, I decided to get myself a pair of shoes. Being indicisive, I wanted every pair of gorgeous shoes I laid eyes on. Snap back to reality (and to the amount of money in my wallet) and I had to decide. I finally decided on a pair of to-die-for heels. Unfortunately they came in two colours. I hate that. It makes the task of choosing even more difficult especially when you love both colours. I couldn't make up my mind. Mummy couldn't make up her mind. So......I got to buy both!!!!!! Sometimes parents are so unpredictable. Btw, I bought these heels a few days prior to my birthday and mummy paid for the heels...:) :)
Fast forward to my birthday. Went for dinner with my family and my aunt. Then as usual, we had to look around a.k.a. window shop/shop even though we've been to the place a million times and can tell you exactly where which shop is located. I love having a mum that loves shopping more than I do. Gives me an excuse to go shopping la. Teehee... Anyway back to the topic, my mum saw this bag she liked and I in turn saw the cutest pair of pumps in the world. My aunt saw a bag she liked and all's happy. It so happened that that shop was having a saleeeee..Me love sales....Buy 3 items and the 2nd item gets 20% off whereas the 3rd item gets 30% off. In order of price of course. That means the more expensive item won't get a discount whereas the 2nd most expensive item will get 20% off and so on. My pumps were the cheapest. Yay!! Mum finally relented and bought me the pumps too :)
Life's a little brighter when you have shoes to think about...
Ever had one of those days where everything just seems to want to irritate you and nothing goes right?
I hate those days. Or maybe I'm just PMS-ing.
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The day somebody comes up with a very, very good answer as to why we have to learn Moral in school, please give me a call. After learning it for approximately 9 years or so, I still can't figure out why. It wasn't so bad when all you needed was common sense to ace a written exam. But when they start to get you to memorise word by word of something that won't be of any use, and still expect you to ace it according to their rules, now that can get ugly. Don't we have freedom of speech???
mor·al (môrl, mr-)
adj.
1. Of or concerned with the judgment of the goodness or badness of human action and character: moral scrutiny; a moral quandary.
2. Teaching or exhibiting goodness or correctness of character and behavior: a moral lesson.
3. Conforming to standards of what is right or just in behavior; virtuous: a moral life.
4. Arising from conscience or the sense of right and wrong: a moral obligation.
Does the government expect us to act morally just because we memorise a few sentences that sound almost the same and write it down on paper? Puhleezzz...
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Food for thought
Is it better to take a chance and settle with the consequences of your actions good or bad or take the safe route and forever wonder about the what if's?
Is it just me or has the whole wolrd been into cars? Honestly, everywhere I go I would overhear snips of conversations dicussing cars...so maybe I haven't exactly been into cars..More like total lack of interest...Hehe.
My sister knows more about cars than I do. Yea she can tell the difference between a Supra and a Skyline. I think. Oh whatever. She sure talks about it enough. I recently noticed that my whole family is into cars. Extended family members included as well...it makes me feel so inferior. They'll be dicussing spoilers, drifting, and on and on and on... FYI, I do know what is drifting...Weeee...
Just to prove my point, just look at the magazine my cousin is reading....Honestly. I think I need to get out more. I am sooooooo left behind.
Just to show you all that I have picked up a few tips, I made a list of the cars I find so totally HOT! (Took me awhile I must admit...Still learning. On a super crash course at the moment)
1.The Supra.
3. Nissan Skyline GTR.
4. The latest BMW 5 series.
I never said it was a long list. (winks)
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I worship lead for CF today. Standing in the front facing the crowd I could see the nervous form 1's right in the front. Looking at them reminded me for a brief second of how I felt during my first CF meeting. Seriously, I was a just a bundle of nerves. I can still remember the worship leader asking us to come in front and that made us all the more to want to shrink to the back of the group. Being vertically challenged, that proved to be a problem however. Thank god I've passed that awkward stage. Well, more like progressed from it since I still feel awkward at times. I think I've come a long wayyy...
I just realised something.
I never thought much of it before but I realise that after watching movies based on classic novels, I would suddenly have the urge to read the novel. Weird I know but I can't help it. However, the urge does go away after a while. I guess my laziness does play a part in it. I really don't want to read classics. Too many thees and thous.
I watched A Christmas Carol- The Musical last christmas and I lovedddd it. Then again I've always loved musicals. I have always wanted to read this book. I even borrowed it from the library as I would never buy it. Its currently sitting on my table. Untouched (See what I mean?). It will be. Soon, I hope.
I can't remember when was the exact year I watched this movie. I was way younger then. Thus, more naive. I loved the movie and even back then I didn't notice that I had this weird urge. I bought the book. Yup, I sooooo did. And guess what? It was the non-condensed version. No wonder why it is still sitting in my bookshelf/display cabinet collecting dust. Loads of dust. I'll probably read it one day. Maybe when I'm 70 years old and I have run out of books to read. If I even live that long...
PS: There were many versions of this movie so I can't exactly pinpoint the one I watched. Oh well. This poster looked the best out of the ones I found anyway. Btw, if you get the chance, watch it.Its seriously a good movie.
Stangely, I read this book before I watched the movie. The condensed version of course. I learned my lesson after reading 5 lines of Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre and didn't understand a single sentence. I didn't mind the book but I wasn't really into the movie. Winona Ryder and Kirsten Dunst star in this movie btw. But I guess you guys already know that. : P
Apparently this is the latest promo picture for the latest Oliver Twist movie. I didn't watch this version however. I watched the one which Elijah Wood starred in. I also found out not too long ago that he acted in that movie. I think the boy who acted in that version of Oliver Wood is sooo cute but I can't remember his name at the moment.Hahah.. Who can forget the classic "May I have some more? " line.. I found the musical in Genting entertaining as well. I don't remember having the urge to read this book strangely. Oh well.
Anyway, there you have it. My weird little urges. Hope you guys didn't fall asleep reading this. :D
Up till now, I've had three people come up to me and said that I look like a form 2. *gives a BIG smile* And to think these 3 comments a.k.a. compliments ( yeah I'm treating them as compliments) came in almost the same time as each other.* gives a BIGGER smile*
That may not be much to you but for someone who has spent most of her waking life being told she looks like a college student when she is in fact 2 years younger, that number is pretty big.
Yeah, thats me. Ugh how I hate being told I look older that my actual age. No offense but honestly, I juat wanna look my age. Whatever that means. When I tell people that I'm actually so and so, their eyes get all big and round and they go "Really?!?...Wow you look older than that!"..it sucks. I dont wanna grow old that fast...
Then there are the times when I get mistaken for a sales girl. You won't believe how many times I get that. Especially at shopping malls. Then again I haven't had anyone come up to me and asked me to find this pair of shoes in saiz 6 for them recently....Must be the " You look like a form 2 thing..its working ". Heh.
So here' my little theory..No offense whatsoever but the people that came up to me and said that I looked younger for once were actually quite mature looking themselves. So I'm thinking that it works in a way that people who look older than they really are, lets say 3 years older, have a way at looking at other people and thinking they are younger than their given age. Yes, even those who look older than their age e.g.= me. It got me thinking and I was trying to remember those who thought I looked older than my age and I've come to realise that those people actually looked younger than their age. Thats a compliment btw to those of you.
I hope you guys understood what I just said. Or wrote. :)
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I'm going to go to my aunt's house to eat now. Ah life is sweet when you get to eat and actually have a reason for putting on weight. In my case, its our never-ending festivals...
I've been eating one way too many of these lately. I think I average about 3 a day. Then again I do only eat like this once a year. So yeah, I'm gonna continue eating till I finish the whole basket...I'm currently attacking the 2nd basket. The 1st one didn't have a chance. Feeling soooo vitamin C enriched at the moment. :)
These are Mandarins btw.
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I'm going to be spending CNY in KL this year. Yeah finally. It's just so tiring travelling to Penang sometimes. And I go there often. Very often. Besides when I go there all I do is eat, sleep, and watch TV. I can't even yack much as me, being a banana and therefore can't even speak my own mother tongue. I'm hopeless.
I'll be going to Malacca for a day trip to visit my mother's side of the family. Really looking forword to it as I have not been there for the longggggggest of times. Besides there'll be loads of food, food, food!!
P.S. = My friends were oh so wrong this year!Nyahahahahah....I'm not going back to Penang contrary to what they think...
Happy Chinese New Year Everyone!!
P.P.S = Ang pows are most welcomed....teehee~
Wow!!...I've been tagged by my dearest Ai Leen. So here goes......
The rules/procedures are as follows:The first player of this game starts with the topic "five weird habits of yourself," and people who get tagged need to write an entry about their five weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged and link to their web journals. Don't forget to leave a comment in their blog or journal that says "You are tagged" (assuming they take comments) and tell them to read yours.
Proceed at your own risk..
1. I tend to drift off a lot. I'm sorry if you're talking to me and I suddenly look like I'm staring into oblivion...
2. I like it when my mum lets me eat the fried rice that gets stuck to the ladle after she finishes cooking...Hehe..Yeah the slightly burnt part..
3. I have a weird earring fetish..I can't help but buy a pair or three almost everytime I go shopping...Teehee~
4. I like things neat and tidy. I'm not neat and tidy however. Ugh. Hypocrite.
5. My face turns way too pink when I get all flushed up..It's pretty damn obvious...
And now I tag...
Germae
Audrey
Wern Ching
Krystyn
Aaron
I'm feeling low.
I'm feeling very, very low.
I'm feeling very, very, very low.
I'm feeling lower than low.
Lower than the bottom-of-the-ocean low.
And I have no idea why.
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My friends have started studying.
Going for revision courses.
I haven't.
Now I feel lower than a bottomless pit.
Somebody shoot me.
I'm blogging....when I should really be studying. I'll regret this later.
I'm in one of those moods. Currently feeling very sleepy AND grouchy. Sue me if you will. I don't care at the moment.
Of course a few things have happened that brought me to this point of feeling low and I think if anyone talks to me right now, I just might not answer them or snap back. Thats why I'm blogging.
First of all, I came home with a mountain of homework. Then I discovered that I accidentally tore out a page from one of my books which had vital information as to what I have to do for my never ending Moral essay. So now I can't finish my essay and I have to go to school tomorrow and rush to finish it. In a way, I guess I should have written all that IMPORTANT info in a place where I was not exactly prone to tearing out. Which makes the matter more infuriating. *smacks head*
I CAN'T DO MY ADD MATHS (Or more like I can't finish it by myself).So its nothing new... I've been leaving blank pages in my book all the this time due to the fact that my puny brain can't function well enough to solve all the equations.....
Mod Maths was...torturous. I am now 100% convinced it will never be of any use to me in the future...refer to my previous post on my lil' rambling on Mod Maths.
My brain is in deep shit. I can't remeber how to do my Chemistry...Most of it anyway. And to think that I like Chemistry the most out of my three Science subjects. The horror......
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I'm in a dilemma.
I've been stuffing myself non- stop with food since the holidays started. Somehow last year all the main festivals happened a few weeks from each other. Hari Raya, Deepavali, Christmas, etc...
Ang NOW, CNY is just around the little corner.... Another period for me to pig out on food with too much fat, carbs and cholesterol. I seriously can't afford to stuff my big fat mouth. Honestly. After stuffing myself during the Christmas period, I somehow managed to stuff myself again during New Year as well. The wonders of my stomach.
I want to eat.I really really do. But I can't start pigging out yet again. I really really can't. I know its the hols and all...that makes it even harder NOT to gorge myself in sinful yet shamelessly delicious food.
So much for psyching myself to eat more healthily la..... Although I must say that I have been doing fairly well... well, before the festive season la not pigging out every chance I got...Cereals for breakfast and all. Low-fat whole-wheat cereals. Believe it or not. Before this, I would never have touched a cereal box much less one that says 'low-fat AND whole-wheat'. I suprised myself though. It turned it to be better than I expected and I didn't have much complaints whatsoever. Then.
Anybody wanna convince me that I've been eating too much? Criticism appreciated. No offense taken. It might help psych me out anyway.
XOXO,
Sara
School started this week.Wow big shocker there now is it?...Yup, after two months of practically doing almost nothing I'm back to waking up at 6 a.m. and spending half my day presumebly gaining knowledge....
Just a re-cap of my first week in what would possibly be my most stressful year thus far...
Tuesday- Started off with us being our usual blur selves trying to find out where we were supposed to line up and stuff..Yup, typically us.After that followed with a usual boring day, save for the constant chatting our lovable class is able to produce (catching up with each other mah..).There are usually no lessons on the first day of school.Thinking about it made me feel more cheerful actually.Maybe for once I would not have to come home to a never ending pile of homework *shudders*...Then..to top off the day like a beautiful cherry on a Sundae, in came our Physics teacher and gave us a peka to doShe even wanted us to stay back!.On our first day...Why? I may never know....Don't teachers know that we're still trying to get accustomed to studying againafter a two month hiatus?Hehhe.
Wednesday-Nothing much except for another boring lesson of Mod Maths. I don't mean to criticise or anything but honestly la, some of the topics in Mod Maths just don't seem to be useful to me now and never will be.Never ever.
Thursday-Yup, Pn. Lee missed us.Missed giving us tons of homework that is.Aih. The first Add Maths period and we're already piled with homework.Too much homework.Yeah, she sure missed us.A lot if you judge by the amount of homework she gave us.
Friday-Had our first Chemistry lesson today.Wasn't so bad actually.Found out that I have to pay RM 143 just to sit for SPM.What a rip off.Might as well don't sit for the exam..If it were possible.A BIG if.A very big UNLIKELY if.
Thats the first week.Only the first week.Many more to come till the big bang. Currently praying very hard to survive this year.*smiles*
P.S. : Remember when I said this would probably be my most stressful year? Actually someone corrected me on that one today.It isn't probably.It WILL be.The reason is because he says this exam will determine my entire future...Oh joy to the world.I feel no pressure now.Nope, not at all. *rolls eyes*
New year.New school year.New me.Or maybe not...
Another year is over.It seems really, really, REALLY fast.In two days I'll be going back to school.Aih...form 5.Another crucial year.Just to add to my stress o-meter.Before I know it, SPM will be right in front of my eyes.
I just can't believe that this year will probably be my last year in this school.Unless I somehow or raher plan to do from 6 la..Which will probably not happen anyway.Whatever.As I was saying, I can even still remember my first day in secondary school.Then suddenly.....its my last.How time flies.Pretty soon it'll be colleges and hopefully,(keeping my fingers crossed) universities.
SPM year.One I have been dreading.Guess I can't escape it.Another year of lugging around heavy revision books.Hehe.I can't 'wait'...
Somebody asked me about new year resolutions recently.Come to think of it, I can't exactly remember a new year's resolution I bothered to make AND follow.I just forget about it after a while.Sad.My resolution this year?... Hmmmm...Hopefully to excel in my oh-so-important SPM.And just being a nice person.
I feel very lazy to yack at the moment.Probably because I'm not feeling too well.Anyway, beforeI go...
Have A Joyous and Wonderful New Year!!!
